Life just seems to be vibrant and full of twist and turns I leave and come back to this place just about as much as I come to my own reality in life- A few updates I have gone on a pretty self finding journey trying to see myself as what is to come and what will come all in this time I ask myself who have I become and why have I accepted this so easily.. I tell you this right now it is because I have the person I love next to me the man who has promised me his heart mind and soul just as I have him I feel next to him we will feel no sorrow we will have struggles but never will we feel sorrow, I am excited and nervous about our feature our time together the small laughs and the faults we both shared- At this time in my life I could honestly feel ready for a child not the "aweehhhwh I want a baby I have baby fever" to me I feel physically able to become much more than a wife I feel I could become role of mother care giver of not just his and my life but the creation we would produce.Did I not mention to anyone? I am happily engaged soon to be married I did not have a huge wedding much less would I ever want a huge wedding I just do not see it being financially sane a small dress a court room 3-5 people you care about- I really feel I could easily become accustomed to the domestic life hah