So yeah. Had myself a fun little emotional breakdown last night. A whole lot of everything coming to a head.

My brother has made life pretty much unbearable now. I cannot stand arrogant, selfish, mooching, violent douchebags, and he fits all those criteria. My dad is like that, and I hate him for it, and now it seems my brother has adopted the charming nature, too.

I literally cannot take any more. I'm not scared of him at all, despite his claims I am, but I AM scared of what he'd do to my mom if I left. He'd bleed her dry and run her into the ground, of this I'm sure.

I want to move out. I desperately NEED to move out. I'm almost 27, and still at home. I do have a friend who is willing to take me in, but the circumstances prevent ant sort of advancement until at least June. I'm not entirely sure I can last that long.

The end result will still be living with my mate  berettafusion I don't know when this will happen, due to visas, money, employment, and a whole lot more. I don't want to move out of Australia...its nice here, despite various political things. But if need be, I'll have to...and thereby leaving my mom practically defenceless against the douche.

So there's my problem, in a nutshell. Need, want and desire to get out of home, but I lack the money to do so, and I'll leave my mom at the dubious mercy of my brother.

I need help...