I had a minor stroke. It started at work but I work up the next day in horror as my right side was barely functional. Since then I have had to adjust. I have most of my ability back but not all of it. The doctors said that the first six months are the best for recovery. That window is now closed.

I'd be lying if I said that I am in better spirits or reflecting happily on how lucky I am. Seems that I've developed some pretty bad emotional problems as a result. I want to lash out at people, cry for know reason, and just crawl into a hole.

Needless to say it's not fun. Life might get better but at the risk of sounding emo I just seem to be going through the motions. I'm running in place so to speak and really don't care that I am. It's more a case of 'meh, whatever' than actual depression.

If I get out of this rut then so be it. If not, no big loss.