0210 am and I'm wide awake.

Got a great family, great friends and for the most part life is treating me well.

Though I do feel very lonely sometimes.

I only feel lonely when I dwell on it, I keep myself busy so I don't sit around regretting what I've not/have done. see, one of my friends is dating my sister, couldn't stop them if i wanted to and I'm happy for them. yesterday my friend brought up the subject of me being single, many of my friends have girl friends (some long term and other have actually popped the question and are now engaged) and I myself have never had a girl friend and have only got to first base twice with a single girl but other then that I've had no luck with love. whats made me feel like i am at the moment is my sister knows of two occasions where girls have flirted with me and I've been completely oblivious to it, both of them really into me and I didn't even know it.

my co-workers find it hard to believe I'm single, they say I'm polite, well-mannered, trusting, always willing to help and they have joined in at finding me a girl to love (one called me a 'friendly giant'). I have zero experience with flirting, I always assume that every girl I find attractive is taken and I feel my height makes me intimidating (6.4/5). I seem to have an apprehension on even attempting to talk to girls, feeling like I'm so nerdy that I won't have anything to talk about with them. I play video games, watch anime, read manga, play Warhammer and follow the Flash community (specifically Newgrounds and associates) and the ladies around me seem more into the more mainstream of entertainments and cultures then the niche group I sit in; and most of the stuff I do outside of my own house involves only the male group.

I'm not really looking for replies, just needing to write this down as I'm too closed up to openly speak about this with anyone I know in real life.