Comes and goes and I feel more hollow and soulless than I thought this year. I always hated the year due to not able tofully enjoy it with the one soulmate I wish to have yet all around me other people get some things they wish and other try and make the best of what they got. For me... I just get a empty feeling that doesn't go away until the end of the year happens. I feel unfulfilled on life still and I don't really know why when I'm trying to keep what few friends I have left to talk to me online before I start going insane with psychotic depression I guess. Yes I did wish I could've spent Christmas back home in Oklahoma but that didn't fill the emptiness either when I was there so its apparently something more I want I guess. Anyways, I'm depressed but nobody cares so I'm gonna end this before I ruin the moods of others. Happy holidays to all.