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Holidays Aftermath 2013
12 years ago
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Augh.
Yeah.
That's all I could say.
Sorry I didn't do holiday arts again this year. I was almost up for it, but then that mood came crashing down. Don't worry though - the story I'm going to tell you does end kinda pleasantly.
Anyways - the day of Christmas. My mom and I were pretty angry and how she and myself had to do all of the work while my dad hid in the basement (even though his sister was coming over) and my brother was mostly in his room. So this was a "great start" for us.
My aunt gets here and things were pretty good. I just felt awkward because I would've talked to her more, but I was so busy getting dinner ready. Although she was nice enough to give me a Christmas card and $50. That's all I got on the day of the holiday mind you. Everything else I bought for myself, my friend Satura gave me, the cute arts pervynamek02, some Gaiaonline giffties, and Gaiaonline's jedinightwing. So yays! Thanks guys! :heart:
Anyways. my mom would rant at me at times as I was trying to prep dinner which really wasn't helping in a way; if anything it was just making me angrier. But then I started to feel a bit better because I finally was allowed to start making my pizza gyoza. This was when I was at my happiest because it's so much fun making it.
So I already knew my brother and mother liked them, my aunt also loved them~! I was so happy!
Then as I was prepping more, I turned to dad and asked him what he thought of them. He turns to me and coldly states, "...I didn't like them. AT ALL."
My heart SANK. Sure, I know everyone isn't going to like my cooking, but when your own flesh and blood says such a thing to you in a such a manner - it can really bring you down. So I kept my feelings all bottled up inside and my mom just kept telling me don't worry about it and ranting to me about it. I think she was even more mad at him than I was. It was really getting on my nerves and I didn't need that extra pressure.
So then when dessert came, I didn't take any because I was beyond disgusted. I just didn't want to talk to anyone.
So when my aunt left, I turned to my mom and just busted out emotion because I was tired of holding it in. So when my dad returned, mom took him to their room and told him what the problem was. Afterwards my dad came out to apologize, but to me it was not sincere. It sounded angry and annoyed. He was told to do it. So I didn't believe him.
So there I was still mad as hell and hurt. So I didn't even bother doing artwork because of it since I was too emotionally drained. Although it was nice of pimperella over on FB to send me a Skeletor pic. XD Just sayin'.
As hours past though, my dad came up from downstairs and I just kept silent and still. And then he apologizes again. THIS time it was a sincere one because it was coming from him. Not from someone telling him to do so this time. So I forgave him. And I mentioned that mom told me that he didn't like the smell of the gyoza. So I learned he perhaps doesn't like extra virgin olive oil. If he had just told me that from the start instead of saying his dislike coldly - then I would just totally steam them next time!
The thing with my dad though is that he rarely apologizes and mean it. I guess he thinks that sort of thing makes him weak? I dunno. But I actually admire people that can do sincere apologies even when it's hard to do.
So after all of that drama, my night was pleasant. I finally got to try myself the strawberry cheesecake I missed.
So now I just have a slight headache. ^^;
...I'm still a bit bummed I didn't get Christmas art done though. I guess I could make up for it and do winter themed art since I do like doing those, too. We shall see.
Well, I hope all of you had a nice holiday. Mine was insanely rocky and full of drama, but at least it all worked out in the end, right?
Welp. No new TMNT until February. -sadface- So I guess I'll be watching more of the 80s toon. Lol.
Ttyl~!