This is more just to get things out.... I don't know what is wrong with me lately... everything feels... strange and different again... almost as if everything feels too real, but also that everything is so... foreign to me, even everything inside my own house..... and there is a weird hollowness inside me that feels like it is clawing at my insides... and.... I just feel so cold.....
...I feel so... painfully lonely.... and... almost desperate............................ I feel like.... like I need some type of affection or something from somewhere... I just....... I feel empty... and unwanted............