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12 years ago
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Personal account. I finally made it. Yep.
~munchkin~ Nothing new is there yet, so don't get too excited xp
I've been talking a lot with Spirit and some close friends lately about this account. The talk with Spirit, as casual as it was, kinda sealed the deal. Leave it to the wolf to know me better than I know me. As much as I've been trying to keep that wall up between Nite and me... I dunno. It's like, the entire time I had her, I had tried so hard to make her apart of me, reached so far, struggled just to grasp her as my fursona. Yet no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach her. She always felt so different, which frustrated me. Then there came the Munch, and finally I felt like I found my true fursona. My representation for the furry fandom. And even now she's still being better perfected to better fit me.
Yet something Spirit said really struck me. She might have just been a shell for me when I was still trying to find myself, but she was still mine. She was still the face I wore and the name I used when I had no face, when I had no name. She filled in the void, the null space. In a way, maybe part of the reason why I could never reach out to her is because she was already with me. Maybe she was already filling the void the best it could be filled for someone who didn't know who they were or what they wanted in life. Maybe I had lost her to the void, and that was why I never felt her as a touchstone.
Maybe this is just the ramblings of a crazy writer. I dunno. But I'm starting to think that instead of just dismissing her and this account as a whole as just a separate entity, maybe I should rethink my plans. I'm starting to toy with the idea of just keeping this account as my art account, and keeping Nite as my mascot of sorts. That way I can keep her as apart of me, while still staying true to my true fursona. My personal account can just hold personal updates, personal favorites of my commissions (meaning it'll probably be constantly changing xp), and perhaps ref sheets so I can find them more easily.
I dunno. We'll see what the future brings. Either way, personal account, go! Personal updates will definitely be in there from now on.
Personal account. I finally made it. Yep.
~munchkin~ Nothing new is there yet, so don't get too excited xpI've been talking a lot with Spirit and some close friends lately about this account. The talk with Spirit, as casual as it was, kinda sealed the deal. Leave it to the wolf to know me better than I know me. As much as I've been trying to keep that wall up between Nite and me... I dunno. It's like, the entire time I had her, I had tried so hard to make her apart of me, reached so far, struggled just to grasp her as my fursona. Yet no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach her. She always felt so different, which frustrated me. Then there came the Munch, and finally I felt like I found my true fursona. My representation for the furry fandom. And even now she's still being better perfected to better fit me.
Yet something Spirit said really struck me. She might have just been a shell for me when I was still trying to find myself, but she was still mine. She was still the face I wore and the name I used when I had no face, when I had no name. She filled in the void, the null space. In a way, maybe part of the reason why I could never reach out to her is because she was already with me. Maybe she was already filling the void the best it could be filled for someone who didn't know who they were or what they wanted in life. Maybe I had lost her to the void, and that was why I never felt her as a touchstone.
Maybe this is just the ramblings of a crazy writer. I dunno. But I'm starting to think that instead of just dismissing her and this account as a whole as just a separate entity, maybe I should rethink my plans. I'm starting to toy with the idea of just keeping this account as my art account, and keeping Nite as my mascot of sorts. That way I can keep her as apart of me, while still staying true to my true fursona. My personal account can just hold personal updates, personal favorites of my commissions (meaning it'll probably be constantly changing xp), and perhaps ref sheets so I can find them more easily.
I dunno. We'll see what the future brings. Either way, personal account, go! Personal updates will definitely be in there from now on.
