nobody read this please its going to be stupid i can feel it in my bones

premise:
art is the only thing i can do
i want people to see it but it isnt really good enough
i dont feel alright about it

expansion:
i have no other plans than going to do my foundation year after sixth form is done and then do my degree after that, if i get in
every time i draw and post something i get frustrated because it isnt good/interesting enough so i feel as though theres no real reason for me to draw in the first place, like i rely on exposure and comments and totally meaningless things for a reason to draw
i draw for attention, basically, i think
nothing i do is particularly important and especially not to me which really is what matters
i completely lack any subtlety and i cant make jokes or my own ideas not to mention putting them into an image

conclusion:
there really is none and even though i feel alright today i dont really have any resolutions for next year except maybe to not be so terrible but i dont know how to do that and this thing was difficult to write