hmmm...

I hate loose ends, espicaly humans from my past who have scared me, ring me up 2 years later and want to explain the errors of there ways. >>;

daren't if that human femme EVAR rings me again I'll just hang up. darkness, you realize not how darkness was so close to taking and swollowing up my entire future over a simple act.

I have my reason to having a adversion to having sex with a gurl, it steams from my furst "g/f" who suppoeable was preggers after I slept with her...and supposable lost *it" when I dumped her as she ran infront of a car...

pity it didn't splatter her all over the road....poor road...so now, now I have a innate fear of sexual intamacy with gurls...plus fuck actul SEX is SO boring...

bleh, I whine alot, I want a supra, I want so many material things, money is the NICEST though...

Emotions...I enjoy loosing myself in realities far removed from my own, but even then...sex is a part, but the journey is what I live for. am I normal? far from it...

why can't I just...silence loose ends...once and for all, BLERG!! I NEED A CAR.