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Good riddance to 2013
12 years ago
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Ok, that might be a little unfair. It wasn't a great year, but the last few months in particular have been nothing but one bad thing after another for me. My mental state has not been a very happy one for awhile now. But it's a new year, and I'm going to try to get to a better place. Goals are:
1. Get a new job. My current one is a large source of my stress. I hate it. I could go off on a rant, but it boils down to management for the most part being horrid and I can't ignore it anymore. I do more work than anybody else with my job title (and have more training, to boot!), am one of their most reliable employees, have been there for nearly four years and they won't even promote me to full time so I can earn something resembling a liveable wage. I've got applications out there for new jobs and will continue to put out more for anything that looks appealing, so hopefully something comes of that. A change of venue will do me wonders, even if it's more retail. It would be utterly amazing if I could go full-time with my art and costuming, but I know I'm not in a position to do so at this point.
2. DRAW MORE. This goes back to the job. Job leaves me stressed, so I don't want to draw. If I draw, I feel like it's a waste of time unless I draw something good. So out of fear, I haven't been drawing. It's a vicious cycle of thinking I've been stuck in for awhile. My hair-brained idea to counter that is to give myself full license to draw badly. That saying about everybody has 10,000 bad drawings in them? I'm setting the counter back to zero and starting over. I've started with life drawing (hands, figure drawing using an online tool that cycles photos) and intend to keep with drawing from life as much as possible, at least for now. Once I get my artistic confidence back, then I might branch into other things as part of the project. I may also set this up as a Kickstarter project...but first I need to stick with it for a couple weeks so I have a pool to pull examples from.
If I can accomplish both of those, 2014 should be a far better year.
1. Get a new job. My current one is a large source of my stress. I hate it. I could go off on a rant, but it boils down to management for the most part being horrid and I can't ignore it anymore. I do more work than anybody else with my job title (and have more training, to boot!), am one of their most reliable employees, have been there for nearly four years and they won't even promote me to full time so I can earn something resembling a liveable wage. I've got applications out there for new jobs and will continue to put out more for anything that looks appealing, so hopefully something comes of that. A change of venue will do me wonders, even if it's more retail. It would be utterly amazing if I could go full-time with my art and costuming, but I know I'm not in a position to do so at this point.
2. DRAW MORE. This goes back to the job. Job leaves me stressed, so I don't want to draw. If I draw, I feel like it's a waste of time unless I draw something good. So out of fear, I haven't been drawing. It's a vicious cycle of thinking I've been stuck in for awhile. My hair-brained idea to counter that is to give myself full license to draw badly. That saying about everybody has 10,000 bad drawings in them? I'm setting the counter back to zero and starting over. I've started with life drawing (hands, figure drawing using an online tool that cycles photos) and intend to keep with drawing from life as much as possible, at least for now. Once I get my artistic confidence back, then I might branch into other things as part of the project. I may also set this up as a Kickstarter project...but first I need to stick with it for a couple weeks so I have a pool to pull examples from.
If I can accomplish both of those, 2014 should be a far better year.
