While i havent read much of it, my grandmother (whos like my true mother atm since biological mother wasnt capable of having me young...friggen faults of her *ahem*) And ive actually argued with her about these shits many times...she gets angry for THE MOST MINIMAL THING (and when i say it, i mean when even the tiniest thing doesnt go acoording her way/plan, even chopping a piece of meat e-e¡¡) , and then she plays all the suicidal part OR talks shit bout me, bout how i would be like my mother (low blow...) and more shit of, like my father never being here, how i should just get out n thing slike that, then if i ever say anything she instantly shits back and , as always, does the contrary of what she says...its funny how she loves to keep the spotlight, even overexagerate stories bout me or anyone she has been with -.-¡¡

As of the god part? while i dont believe as much anymore, i do not think he would answer to that kind of prayers regardless ._. even less if she plays with death so much (which sickens me a lot at this point) , so it might be painful, but what you said its right ._. if they keep yapping and blabbing so much about death this death that suicide X Y Z...then for bob's sake just...get over with it ._.

I have no ill-thoughs bout my grandmother, but even she crosses the lines way too much to make me feel shitty too (sometimes even succeeding and causing me a depresive status til either end of the day or a good friend managing to cheer me up ._.)

So hang in there, and just see what happens =/ Theres nothing much that can be done for this kind of people x-x

Sounds like she needs better doctors and a psychiatrist. It is hard being in constant pain, I know this from personal experience, as I seldom ever have a day where something doesn't hurt. One of my illnesses is actually called "the suicide disease". I have had the suicidal thoughts and I think everyone who has ever been chronically ill or in pain has them. I get through it as I have a good network of friends, not so many but just a few very close ones.

She actually has a psychiatrist who has given up on curing her because in his medical opinion she can't be cured. I think he has realized a lot of what she does and how she acts is for sympathy or attention so he has resorted to shoving her off on interns and just giving her medication.

She is also a hypochondriac. Every time she see's a commercial about this disease or that disease suddenly she has it. A good example of this is one day I had a VERY bad case of food poisoning and I couldn't quit vomiting. The same day she says she is sick and she must have caught it from me to which my mate snaps back "How could you catch what he had when it was food poisoning. The last I checked that isn't contagious"

She suddenly was no longer ill and just so "Oh" and went back to eating whatever snack she had.

Poor woman. Its so sad she feels the need to do this for attention. I still say tho she needs a better psychiatrist to help her get over this. The right one can do a world of good for her. It might even help for her to be an inpatient at a psych-hospital. I was in one almost a month in 2000 due to a combo of my own medical issues and the death of my grandfather. It changed my way of doing things and how to look for the positive things in life.
I know I talk alot of my medical issues on my journal but a lot of it I keep to myself unless there is a possibility of it worsening.

Anyway I really wish the best for her and hope things improve. It might be worth also looking for a support group to help her.

She has been in the psych-hospital at least 4 times over the years that I can remember. Once right before Thanksgiving a few years back (cuz it was going to be at my brothers and his wife was doing all the planning and not her) she has also been in group a couple of times I believe as well. One of which I had to sit in on.

Don't get me wrong I do love her but it is hard to give much credence to this when she has done this same thing so many times over the years.

Problem is she is exactly like my grandmother was and not sorry for the things she has done. Grandma, on her death bed, was even afraid of going to hell and when someone said "If you are truly sorry for the things you have done God will forgive you" she then replied "but I'm not sorry" and I guess that persons response "Well I guess you are going to hell then.

Mom doesn't see that the things she does is wrong. She is a very selfish and self centered person.

She is actually seeing a psychiatrist and as you see from my reply to Savaaha he has given up on her.

I think she needs to be monitored by some specialists.

Unfortunately you can never take suicide threats lightly. You know this situation better than anyone commenting here, so if you're convinced this is an attention seeking behavior I believe you. But, that having been said it's never wise to take the chance. Perhaps try redirecting her towards an age appropriate group activity that would help shift her focus away from herself, while providing needed social support? My mother adores her garden group and finds it to be a constant source of enjoyment. It would also have the added benefit of giving your mother a way to express her feelings artistically.

Ugh, I wouldn't wish what I had on anybody, your mom would probably use it for attention too

>.< And what would that be if I may ask?

Hodgekins Lymphoma XP