I was originally going to a mere inquiry but when I get tired my mind cycles through movies I've recently watched trying to find something that can expand upon until fall asleep

which most movies I've been watching recently are quite dark


what I was originally trying to ask is
if something without purpose wanted to become your eternal friend yet had nothing of it's own other than an ache of loneliness
if it wanted to follow you it would need a form and personality although it would not be forced to follow you afterwards it would be part of a contract that if either party abuses the other they shall part ways
the contract is more of a pact than a contract it's more to prevent harm to either party

but if the hollow is not the only one willing and if something that would rather be a husk but does not want to let go for the sake of being alone offers to take the place if they get to follow procedure

still it's essentially playing god
it's not something anyone should try
my mind is full of thoughts and ancient practices that I would never try
I'd rather ask what others standpoint on them is as a way to learn more about those who respond
a lot of things I may ask are not because I intend to do them they are essentially testing
those who answer but my mind runs several thoughts at once and they occasionally get crossed

it doesn't help that recently I've been able to study my own behavior when I forget to take my meds at night
when I take it I sleep longer but im more stern and analytical
when I don't take it I don't sleep as long but I tend to be more easy going I tend to enjoy things more
and although im still calculating I'm not as analytical
I'm as aware but im not as stuck on the details
which that has been running around in my mind for the last week
so with a lot going around in my mind lines get crossed and the point of what I intend gets lost