I think I've recently come to the conclusion that, what I want most out of life right now, what I need, in some real respect. Yet, in many respects, respect has been the most difficult thing for me to earn, it's just so elusive.

People don't seem seem to respect kindness and forethought. They don't seem to respect honesty and effort. Most my efforts at writing in my life, save for the pieces I myself don't respect, have almost without exception been panned by the writers I respect. Players whom I've tanked for for months, and whom I've cleared top tier difficulty content with, frequently criticize my tanking skills, and throw mistakes back at my face for days or even weeks.

My family loves me, but far too many of them treat me like I'm a broken thing because of my aspergers. And, no matter how understanding and respectful I am, far too many people seem to lose respect for me when they learn I may not share their political beliefs.

It's hard you know. I really don't want to be a whiner, but there are so many times when I wish there was a manual for earning and keeping the respect of others.