So living my life right now has kind of been like floating in a dream that constantly changes from a nightmare to a dream. I realized just a couple days ago that I'm at twelve years of being a self realized furry and four years of actually participating in the local community. While I am amazed that this part of my life has lasted this long, I also do wonder if it will last another twelve years. I worry about growing out of it. I worry about my future taking me away from something that I love. I worry about not finding inspiration anymore.

Other things in my life are really bringing me down. Relationship-wise, I don't think I really want to be with anyone for the time being, I am enjoying my time on the single market and being able to be non-committal. I guess if the right person came along I would be interested, but it's just not happening right now. Financially I have kind of hit a wall, I'm really trying to save but more bills just keep coming in and meh, I just need to relax with the spending. School is becoming another stressor in my life. I thought it would be easy enough to ease back into, but with the multiple exams coming on the same days... I'm a little freaked out...

That's not to say I don't have people who are taking care of me and helping me through these times.  lexjaeger has been invaluable... He is definitely the big brother I've always wanted and needed in my life. You have no idea how much you mean to me kitty.

 armageddon1234 and  theslipperiest have also been helping me. You both are too awesome and I really appreciate it.

I am lucky to have such supportive friends, but sometimes I just get in a negative spot and it's hard to get out, thanks for bearing with me guys...