So, today idiot messaged me saying how much he wants to make me proud of him and that he was sorry, like sorry he gets the way he does when he's mentally not okay and blocks everyone out. He also said how much he missed me when he wasn't okay. I gave him space because you can't hover over him it just makes things worse.
He didn't tell me until today but he's been at the doctors and psychologist a lot this past month.
He told me he's being put on medication for his depression/anxiety, and BPD.
For some reason he feels like he doesn't make me proud and he really want to make me proud... This fucking idiot makes me very proud even if he's not on medication to help him out on a daily basis.
Gosh, this fucking idiot I swear.
I just want to bundle him up, kiss him, and tell him I'm very proud and that he's perfect.
Like it takes a lot for him to admit that he's not okay and I just //cries
man, I just don't know. He's perfect and I mega worry about him sometimes.
I know he's had a lot of bad things happen to him(things I will not say because it's not my place) in the past and IS scared to tell people when they're hitting him hard because it makes him feel weak?
idek, this idiot means a lot to me and we have our rough moments but it's nothing I can't understand.