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Just some ramblings
12 years ago
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Greetings One & All
I have been thinking about this journal for several weeks. There are things that have happened to me and things that have happened to some friends. Nothing horrible or life threatening. Just sad.
Many of you know how I feel about friends. Friends are extremely important. Actually, more important than family. You are born into a family, you have no choice who your parents are or siblings. But with friends, you/they choose one another.
Because of this, losing a friend (physically by death or even just an emotional parting of ways) hurts in incredible ways. Being friends means so much.
I almost have no words to describe the love, compassion & care that I have for the people I am lucky enough to call "Friend". And because of this, when one of them walks out of my life, they take a part of me that I can never have back. I always feel that I have failed. That this parting is because of me. And I wish I knew what I had done that caused them to cut that bond that meant so much to me. The pain it causes is more than emotional. It's a physical pain. As bad as being punched in the gut.
Recently I have seen people walking away or turning their backs on people they had called "Friend". This is incredibly sad & heart-breaking.
There are certain people that I am thinking of (and no I won't say who, or confirm or deny). I wish I could express how bad I feel for others & myself.
There is no need to comment. I know I am loved. I am just rambling about a sad situation that has and is causing pain.
Many of you know how I feel about friends. Friends are extremely important. Actually, more important than family. You are born into a family, you have no choice who your parents are or siblings. But with friends, you/they choose one another.
Because of this, losing a friend (physically by death or even just an emotional parting of ways) hurts in incredible ways. Being friends means so much.
I almost have no words to describe the love, compassion & care that I have for the people I am lucky enough to call "Friend". And because of this, when one of them walks out of my life, they take a part of me that I can never have back. I always feel that I have failed. That this parting is because of me. And I wish I knew what I had done that caused them to cut that bond that meant so much to me. The pain it causes is more than emotional. It's a physical pain. As bad as being punched in the gut.
Recently I have seen people walking away or turning their backs on people they had called "Friend". This is incredibly sad & heart-breaking.
There are certain people that I am thinking of (and no I won't say who, or confirm or deny). I wish I could express how bad I feel for others & myself.
There is no need to comment. I know I am loved. I am just rambling about a sad situation that has and is causing pain.
I disagree. I lost my wife. I lost my children. I've lost a lot of frirends over the years, but all of them combined cannot equal one of the three most important people I've lost.
Essentially, I (potentially/hypothetically) lose friends now on the hopes that I never have to in the future.
The only times I ever lost friends, it was never just breaking it off.
For me, it seems to always be more of a "drifting away" thing. Slowly I stop communication and we just stop talking.
Though, I have the habit of never really starting a conversation online, so it becomes this odd situation of "are we not talking anymore, or have I just not started a conversation in a while?"
In light of that, feel free to note me anytime. I know I am terrible at sending them myself. I don't mean anything bad by doing so!
I won't stop being friends with you unless you do something terrible. So its safe to say we will know each other for a while =)
I appreciate your kind words! *hug* And I agree, we will know each other for a while!
When stuff like this happens, it's then that you know who your real friends are, Hollie. <:.) *hugs bunches*
Sometimes it's a sad part of life. And sometimes it's for the best.
You've just got to have discernment. <:)
And believe me, you're definitely not alone. <:' <:3
*hugs again*
I love you bunches, Hollie. <:3
I hope the best for you, and hope things turn for the better.