Just a general update on me/my page/etc, please read? ~<3
12 years ago
So, just warning everyone now, any art of Wicked with a ween, shall be moved over to my old art account
killianaka which is pretty much dead, and just a place to hold said older art.
The reason for this being is I really don't identify myself as a full male anymore, and frankly I just don't want it associated with me I guess? There have been quite a few rather rude comments I've received in the past about "Well I like you better with a dick" or such...and frankly, that's too bad. I do plan on actually transitioning in the nearby future (When my life is a little more stable x -x), so telling me stuff like that can be downright hurtful, and I don't appreciate it.
But on that note, yes, I do consider myself transsexual or an Intersexed-Male, even if intersex really is more of a blanket term used more for something 'out of the norm'. I do not find the term cuntboy/dude/whatever offensive...just more I find it silly and stupid? Like imagine calling a cismale "Dickboy/man/etc". I still use it to tag my art, as I understand that it is the popular term for the art, and to be blunt, it's what most people are gonna search for.
Also, when I see an artist say things such as "No I won't draw your cuntboy character, don't fetishize trans* people" or things of the such, it can seem kinda...rude? Like, I can understand that someone who just has a big list of characters and has a CB character is likely JUST doing for the sake of...but what about people like me who actually feel that way irl too? Am I still just feitshizing it?
Last note, I plan on making a new page for more extreme related kinks (Gore/Blood/Snuff/etc) type stuff. I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, so I'm trying to be as respectful as I can be! Keep on a lookout for it when I do make it, or note me if you'd like a link for when I do!
TL;DR version - Moving all male art to an old account; I'm intersexed-male, not cuntboy; don't lump me as a fetishizer for such; new account in the process for gore/more extreme stuff on the way.
SORRY IF THIS WAS RANTY u wu;;
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killianaka
I originally thought that terms like cuntboy were extremely offensive until I realized that oftentimes people use them without any derogatory intent, so now I don't get a kneejerk reaction when I hear it, but I avoid using it in case other people do find it offensive, and I opt for the more 'official-sounding' terms like intersex male or just a plain description of the organs that are/aren't present (e.g. with vagina and penis, no testicles; or with vagina and testicles, no penis). Partly because I'm not transsexual myself, I can't fully put myself in their position and know for sure which terms are considered offensive and which aren't, so I go with extra caution just in case.
As for artists...I haven't heard any of the artists I know say that they don't want to fetishize trans* people, though I know some who don't feel confident they could draw them due to lack of experience. In my opinion, if you find the picture arousing, it has a fetish element, but that doesn't mean it doesn't go deeper. It seems perfectly reasonable to identify with a certain character, gender assignment, body type or even species and have a deep connection to those traits, while at the same time finding them a turn-on. If the artists in question don't feel comfortable drawing that it's okay I guess, but I don't think that just because something is fetishized it is in any way belittled or robbed of the capacity to be deeper, it just means there are several layers to it, as with most things. In other words, there are many reasons to want to have an intersex character and these reasons are not mutually exclusive, any combination of these reasons is possible.
And yeah, I've always kinda been on the fence with the term. Like, I personally have nothing against it (I hated the boy part more then anything), but I completely respect others feeling on the word!
I just really want artists to think about it before they say no to drawing us. This is me, I have one character and it's because that's what I identify with solely; irl and online I identify as intersex/cboy and saying we disturb you or bother you or whatever else is truly hurtful. So please consider your thought process before you say that.
Intersex people do really exist, anthro animals do not; maybe take that into account if nothing else.
Anyway I support you all the way!
Idk about the silliness of the term cuntboy, I relate to it more than other terms, and get a bit annoyed by the fetishizing trans people thing when they're two different things imho, and I personally find the whole cisgeder thing ridiculous.
Also, to answer you're question about cuntboys being a fetishizing thing, I think you aren't personally, since I also have my fursona as one to represent who I would love to be one day for the comfortableness of it more than just the adult aspect (tho it is a plus <,< ) <3
Thank you so much! The rudeness isn't the norm, but it does certainly happen more often then I'd like!
At least it isn't the norm, you should have as much support as possible and beetchslap those who interfere lol
I keep the pimp hand strong!
But when I was really young (Like 10 or younger) I used to be SUPER jealous of all my female friends, and even remember sneaking some of my dad's porno mags and thinking the female form was beautiful and etc etc, growing up to hate how I was thicker/hairy as a teen since I couldn't even pass off as the typical femboy look (Especially in a school where most if not all the gay dudes around were more along the thin/feminine side, which I was the complete opposite of no matter how hard I tried). But as I started to get older and dating
Well a couple of years ago, we had a BIIIIIG blow out when he admitted he was Bi, which led to me being super depressed and scared he was going to find a girl instead or something, until I stopped and really thought of why I was taking it so badly; it wasn't being afraid he was going to leave me for a girl, it was more me suppressing the part of me I grew to dislike (The want to be feminine/be a girl), and realizing I was more jealous of them instead? It's a little hard to explain there, but along all of this, I've ALWAYS hated my...ahem, bits, regardless how much I loved being 'manly'...and it kinda manifested from there. Even when I was like "Fuck yeah I'm a sexy bear dude!", I still hated what was between my legs, but tried to push it into the back of my mind.
It was then I came across 'cuntboys', and realized how much I loved them, and I finally had a sort of...title, for how I felt? Also I finally felt like I belonged somewhere, if that makes any sense? I remember the first time I admitted to him I was even thinking of switching to being an intersex character online, I sweated bullets and thought he would think I was just joking or being just being weird or gross or whatever, and he just hugged me and said he loved me no matter what and it was very emotional for us both ; w;
So yeah, long story short, I've never liked my junk even if I enjoy being masculine, and would consider myself a man/male regardless of what's between my legs
Though i understand that the term cuntboy definitely does not sound good and does focus way too much on the genitals like cboys are some kind of sex toy, i dont see how exactly you would be able to change that in order to make people use a better term, especially since too many people already know and use the word cboys.
Intersex male might be a politically correct term but it does not make what you are very clear, especially for people who dont know anything about the intersex community.
Cuntboy is kind of a dumb term, but "dickgirl" is fairly popular and it's the reverse. If someone came up with a better name, I'd be happy to use it.
Also, I never understood the "don't fetishize trans* people" thing... I mean, isn't the point of porn to fetishize things? Is porn of a girl fetishizing women? Makes no sense imo. I just don't see why it's a sin to be turned on by something I guess. I can fap to simulated rape and not be a rapist, etc.
Do I sound dumb or uninformed? I'm not meaning to.
And the whole fetishizing thing, I completely agree...porn is porn regardless who/what/etc is being viewed, just seems silly to me
Also, as a fun fact waaaaaay back when you first watched me from your Killianaka account I had actually thought you might have been female for some reason. Like, that didn't even change until you made your current account XD I dunno if it just wasn't payin' attention or whatever but yeah.
In any case I am overjoyed to hear that you're feelin' more comfortable with yourself, at least insofar as you know that you want to change and aren't scared to admit it. I really respect that a lot. I'm sure you will be quite the saucy lady <3
And pshaw, thank you dude u wu;; , although I'll be no lady! I'll still be quite the dude, just with lady parts?
And hey, that works just as well~! Whatever ya do, I support ya fully too, so long as yer happy.
And hee, thanks! It honestly makes me super happy, you'd be surprised how many people were more like "Ehh...if you want it I guess." or just overall kinda negative even in their indifference? Idk xD
Side note /rant of my own.
I feel that most people abuse the term "fetish" in relation what should be called a "kink". Fetish is something you NEED to get off. A kink is more of a personal preference that turns you on but isn't required.
Also if someone feels the need to look up the definition of Fetish I will agree that the word fetish has more than one definition but i will defend my point that as time went on the term fetish gained something of a lose association with other terms rather than a clear (like it used to be) definition. I will also maul you with extreme intent to dismember and disable.