Aww, I'm sorry! My daughter has gone through that so many times I felt like I should get my therapy license as I had to be her ear to cry on so many times. She has a new love and he's pretty great but still her past keeps getting in the way to foul it up. *sigh* Funny thing is, she is in college to become a THERAPIST! Hopefully, her classes will teach her how to be better at relationships. Perhaps you should seek a little counseling to see if you're unknowingly sabotaging your relationships, it couldn't hurt.

Hope Spring will raise your spirits again. Find something to be interested in and work your way back to yourself. Good luck, my friend.

Thanks, hope your daughter gets better too.

I kinda hate the idea to go to therapy, or I think it won't help much
as I just got a little grudge/unforgiveness relapsing now and then...
I know I should drop it... but easier said then done right?

as I feel like I should choose the stay far away distance path,
but one part of me doesn't want that, but the other does.

also I'm kinda accepting love isn't for everyone, people are lucky to find love...
others are just alone.

but that's just me I guess, life isn't perfect or fair, even you try your best, it isn't good enough

It's hard work and luck or dumb-luck... as I don't believe in luck...
then again people have it easy with out trying...