I am so sorry to my watchers but this journal is gonna be a bit depressing, but i need to let my emotions out right about now.

I feel so empty inside, i thought i had something but i quickly lost it, because of some things said, and the worst part is, this was a rare chance for me, but it never came my way, because of events that happened, and that i wish had never happened, i saw something extravagant, that i can be happy for a long time, but it turns out it wasn't meant to happen, though i really wish could have happened, had the chance been taken, my choices would have been altered for the better of the choices, in my opinion. I would have liked to spend my life with this choice, but now i am empty inside and i feel indifferent. I won't hold a grudge against the choice, that is not who i am, i just wish the choice was for me

I feel my eyes welling up but this needed to be said and i hope this makes things clearer about the kind of person i am.