So I suppose its easy to tell from the title that I'm feeling kind of down, Work is slowly killing me and the one person I feel that I can turn to is very busy trying to get himself back on track and I don't want to constantly complain to him.

I mean I feel used, I mean I knew working for the place I work at was a stepping stone but to be told I'm useless, that my job has no purpose and that I should start looking for other places of employment, I feel like an asset to the company alright.

I got shorted out $200 on my Tax return so my chance of getting a car/scooter is out the window so I cant go see my mate without relying on public transit, granted its only like $7.60 to go see him but its a 2-3 hour trip, so after i got there I wouldn't have much time to be with him T_T, it tears me up to be so close but so far.

I'm currently the only person in the house with a job who makes more the $200 a week and we pay $1700 a month for this place so I see my rent payment going up in the near future. so its going to make things more difficult on me.

I feel tired, on the outside I'm a very cheerful, delightful, kind person but under a semi-tough looking exterior, I just want to cry in my closet and sleep... a lot to get rid of this pain, My mate is doing so much to keep me on track and I hope he realizes that he holds me together.