Hey all.

I don't typically openly complain or get upset. And this journal might be a run on of that, so feel free to ignore this entry. But I'm just letting people know I have been feeling really tired and depressed. I think it's getting worse because of the weather changes. I go to school only once a week, and every time, it's snowed or went right back to being cold. Looking forward to Spring...

Other than that my life decisions are becoming increasingly more difficult to make due to not having a job yet or knowing where my feelings will take me in life when it comes to my social life. It's true, I don't have many real life friends to speak of. One is a friend I'll never know how to get closer to, I just know he's there for me. And the other happens to be very enthralled with the idea of living together, which I really don't want right now considering I think a serious relationship with a friend I've known since Kindergarten might mess our friendship.

I keep thinking I should have more friends in real life, but I have so many wonderful friends online as well that I wish to one day meet. I've already met a few of them in their hometown or mine. Beyond that I want to travel, get out there, and give myself exposure to the world. I just hope I'm not alone on that journey when it comes to that.

Sorry for musing and brooding over these things, if anyone actually reads this, then I appreciate it. I don't need comfort or acknowledgement, but I think people should know where I'm at at least emotionally. Not everything is bad right now. I just wish things could get better. Maybe I'll change this journal entry when things do change. Until then, thank you to those who are watching and care enough to view my endeavors, and of course to those who've kept being there for me. I'll keep being there for you all as well. You know who you are. And if anyone wants to talk, just shoot me a shout out or note or response here and we can chat.