Toby don't worry too much about commissions, yeah you've gotta do 'em but you don't need to stress yourself out about them <=3 Cutting back the list to where it was before sounds like a good idea, 5 slots is a reasonable amount to deal with at a time, 10 can be a bit overwhelming though.
But anyway, don't worry about it, just relax you've been working hard and you can reopen them whenever you feel like it~ A lot of my friends have been going through a lot of stress lately but you seem to be getting the brunt of it. I hope you're able to relax and rest easy soon once you've finished these commissions, or at least have a load off your mind from having finished them.
If there's anything, anything in the world I can do to help please just say the word and I'll do everything in my power to help. <=3 I don't think I can help pay the bills obviously but.. If there's anything else I can do, I'm right here by your side~ And I always will be~
If you even start getting close to a breakdown, just put down what you're doing, take a breath, get up and do something nice for yourself real quick to help calm your nerves, even if it's just getting up to watch a show before getting back to work on it. Toby, you come first, commissions and other stuff second. I don't want you stressing out of your mind about everything, so please just remember to put yourself first through all of this.
Take as long as you need to do my commission, because you're infinitely more important than any picture I could ever get <=3 I just want to sees you a nice happy kitty that can rest and relax without having a care in the world <3 Like pretty kittys should be able to~
Just remember, I'm here for you Toby, 'n I always will be~ <3

hope you can get through fine! wish i could think of something better to say, but i can't and i'm awful at it so i just hope everything can go well for you, and that you can take your time to do what you need.