so i was in a YCH auction and had the winning bid, the auction ends on moonday so i felt pretty great. it was gonna only be $40. nothing could have or should have gone wrong.... except shit did go wrong. ive got a 2 year old, $5000 Medical bill ive been paying off. well i missed the last payment because ive been out of a job and had no money. so i went and donated plasma because i figured "What he hell i'll have money for an auction Commission and hey i might win it." so i had $60 in my account ready to pay to the artist. well the Collection agency took the money i owed them from my account and that over drafted me $30 well in my bank an over draft charge is $20 so now im $50 in the hole and i had to make a fool of myself to the artist.

AND IF THAT WASNT ENOUGH!

I have been working on a special art piece for my Brother  del3bcl3 well my computer is old as shit and i plugged in my ipod to put some songs on it and evidently one of my USB ports is FUCKED TO SHIT and made the internet and all my programs crash including Photoshop. the sudden crash corrupted the file and destroyed a week's worth of work. im getting sick of life shitting on me and mocking me.

On the plus side I've got a Job interview today and a possible other few jobs that may work out that im hoping for. so here is hoping life doesnt fuck me over again and i can have a job again and start making some money. i need to get back into college and get my associates in art or just take some art classes in general. im sick of being mediocre. I'm sick of being a failure. I'm sick of being..... in this fucking rut ive been in for the past 2 years.... im done...


Okay rant over for now.