I've come to the point where Xannus is kind of like a secondary fursona to me. I've always felt that there was a kind of male side to me, and he fits that side. I've even made him the mascot of my Tumblr page. But it goes even deeper than that.

FANG and Xannus are both two sides of my personality. FANG is all the good and Xannus is all the bad. Where FANG is happy, energetic and loves life, Xannus is depressed, angry and isolated. I always imagined him as the person who was hurt so many times in his life that he pushes everyone away, ultimately leaving him more depressed. Sadly, this is my life right now and maybe that's why I feel a little more closer to him.

I'm trying to decide whether to make him a sexual character or not, since I feel that drawing FANG in a sexual situation, even her nude, would be awkward. I've maybe only drawn her that way a handful of times and I think it's because of me not being attracted to anyone anymore. I feel that being that way in this day and age isn't really understood by most people, but then again, I have urges too. I feel like where FANG can't be that outlet, Xannus can.

I don't know exactly why I'm typing this. I guess I'm just putting thoughts out there.