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11 years ago
I haven't had any real activity in a long while.. Why?...
I lost my grandfather Feb 13th, 2014. The man who supported me through the trials and tribulations of transition and he and my grandmother both nurtured my creative spirit and everything in between, the good, the bad, and the ugly.. everything. Their love was unconditional.
Anytime they needed something, no matter what, or when, any crazy hour.. we ran to help.
He dropped from a severe stroke that took out half of his brain and left him a lethargic vegetable and they pinned us with the decision of removing the feeding tube we had him set up with at the hospital. The call was made and for two weeks of silence from the hospital, we get the call that it 'won't be long now'...
That night I couldn't sleep at all. At 6:30am I told dad mom would be getting an early phone call and at 6:45am we watched the stars in the early morning light and then 7am struck.. wind hit the house with a force to be reckoned with and a full out blizzard to the likes we've never seen hit here.. and I said 'He's gone.' Sure enough 7:20am we get a phone call announcing his passing from the hospital.
It's been pure hell.. dealing with the aftermath. You have family rubbing hands together eyeballing $$$$ and I find it purely.. disgusting.
Then I find out after my folks get back from going to my grandmother's prepping her for moving.. that my uncle's gold digging ~censored~.. walked off with something that doesn't belong to her.
A promise was made to me sooo soo long ago and I've never, ever forgotten it. I realize I'm not a girl, but the jewelry was mine. An opal set in gold, necklace, earings and ring. I can still remember sitting on the couch here in the family home and her showing me them and telling me 'you will get these when you're older because they're our birthstone.'
It was something EXTREMELY special to me then, and still is. This uncle of mine and his 'new wife' don't grasp the concept of sentimental value.. and these items are worth no money value to me. All the money in the world could never.. ever buy them, much less replace these things and I just am shattered...
To find out this ~beeeep~ took what was mine... Material junk doesn't eat me.. but this, this has me on verge of tears for some reason and I am so.. frustrated and upset. I don't know what else to do or think.
This is why I'm not active -anywhere-.. I been playing a little Final Fantasy 14 the past few weeks, thanks to a dear friend for getting it for me to help distract my mind from the choas.. but now this has just made my day. The little token that mattered so much to me because of the raw symbolism.. and sentiment is just.. gone and I'll never get it back.
Devastated.. and depressed. x.x;
I'm sorry if this is stuff no one wanted to read.. but I really needed someplace to just write. Figured my journal was a good enough spot for it.
I lost my grandfather Feb 13th, 2014. The man who supported me through the trials and tribulations of transition and he and my grandmother both nurtured my creative spirit and everything in between, the good, the bad, and the ugly.. everything. Their love was unconditional.
Anytime they needed something, no matter what, or when, any crazy hour.. we ran to help.
He dropped from a severe stroke that took out half of his brain and left him a lethargic vegetable and they pinned us with the decision of removing the feeding tube we had him set up with at the hospital. The call was made and for two weeks of silence from the hospital, we get the call that it 'won't be long now'...
That night I couldn't sleep at all. At 6:30am I told dad mom would be getting an early phone call and at 6:45am we watched the stars in the early morning light and then 7am struck.. wind hit the house with a force to be reckoned with and a full out blizzard to the likes we've never seen hit here.. and I said 'He's gone.' Sure enough 7:20am we get a phone call announcing his passing from the hospital.
It's been pure hell.. dealing with the aftermath. You have family rubbing hands together eyeballing $$$$ and I find it purely.. disgusting.
Then I find out after my folks get back from going to my grandmother's prepping her for moving.. that my uncle's gold digging ~censored~.. walked off with something that doesn't belong to her.
A promise was made to me sooo soo long ago and I've never, ever forgotten it. I realize I'm not a girl, but the jewelry was mine. An opal set in gold, necklace, earings and ring. I can still remember sitting on the couch here in the family home and her showing me them and telling me 'you will get these when you're older because they're our birthstone.'
It was something EXTREMELY special to me then, and still is. This uncle of mine and his 'new wife' don't grasp the concept of sentimental value.. and these items are worth no money value to me. All the money in the world could never.. ever buy them, much less replace these things and I just am shattered...
To find out this ~beeeep~ took what was mine... Material junk doesn't eat me.. but this, this has me on verge of tears for some reason and I am so.. frustrated and upset. I don't know what else to do or think.
This is why I'm not active -anywhere-.. I been playing a little Final Fantasy 14 the past few weeks, thanks to a dear friend for getting it for me to help distract my mind from the choas.. but now this has just made my day. The little token that mattered so much to me because of the raw symbolism.. and sentiment is just.. gone and I'll never get it back.
Devastated.. and depressed. x.x;
I'm sorry if this is stuff no one wanted to read.. but I really needed someplace to just write. Figured my journal was a good enough spot for it.
If FF14 doesn't do it for you, I can pick up a GW2 key for you. Would love to play with you sometime.
Only thing I enjoyed was the leveling process.. but I hate the deleveling crap and I hate the lack of 'things to do' when max leveled... but thanks Swooshy. I found FF14 is actually really good so far.
I been using games to distract best I can.. just got back from going out for a long drive.. I needed out of the house for a bit.
I think I'll just stick with FF14 and WoW for the time being. Any other games seem hard pressed to really come close to what those offer for me. I do keep an eye out for new up and comers though because I do enjoy trying new ones all the time, I just am often disappointed and it's not that I expect it to be just like WoW or anything (that's just silly.. lol) I just find they often fall short when they have some really promising starts. Kinda sad.
I been keeping an eye on Wildstar?.. I think it's called.. but the sad thing is people I play games with I know would roll characters on the faction I wouldn't be on because the race I like are these lizard type dudes and they want the half animal people and I just.. blahhh. Reminds me a lot of WoW in that sense when I enjoy Alliance quite a bit but everyone and their bandwagoners all go 'nuu Horde and belfs plox'.. I just gag, they all.. roll Horde just to play a human with pointy ears -.-;
This is the first I've heard of Wildstar, and I'll definitely look into it. And I like the sound of lizard type dudes. So we'd probably end up on the same faction.
The thing with GW2 is I've had it when it first came out, I've got a number of characters to max level and did majority of it already so the appeal just isn't there for me like it may be for you :P
Wildstar seems pretty interesting and I just wish it would get out of beta.. and actually get online >>;
And yeah I am all of the uninterested in ESO. I quite enjoyed Morrowind, Oblivion, and Skyrim, but I don't think I'd like sharing that experience with a gazillion other people.
Do keep an eye out for wildstar though, it's supposed to be really nice.
But, I guess these kind of things show the true character of those you know. :/
sorry about your loss