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Obligatory Birthday Journal
11 years ago
I turned 31 this weekend.
It's not a very glamorous age, for certain - no one really cares, not even yourself. It's another birthday, just like all the others. The magic has long since faded, but at least it's nice to see all the well wishes from friends and family. It's a nice excuse to let yourself go - if with a little drinking, maybe a little over eating, sleeping in, whatever. I certainly had a decent enough celebration, even if it was primarily all by myself.
That isn't to say I was all alone! I had a rather enjoyable evening with several of my online friends - had a really fun evening of IRC group RP for the
ThundermoonTribe community that I've been slowly fostering over the years. I can only hope that our small group continues to grow, as I would love to see more sexy Tauren in the world.
There have been plenty of hardships, too. Money has been tight for me - though I live comfortably, I would rather not have the stress of living paycheck to paycheck that seems to have crept back into my life. I decided to try and curb my somewhat crippling social anxiety by talking with my doctor and trying out some prescription meds. Well, turns out that health insurance companies hate it when you use your health insurance for anything but keeping yourself marginally alive - a few hefty bills later, and I've had to stop the meds due to the stress the bills were costing me!
However ... I'm trying to breach past my cold, reclusive shell. I'm planning on attending Anthrocon and MFF this year, despite the rather hurtful experience I had last year at my first con. I'm going to try again, but this time, I at least planned ahead somewhat and am arranging to attend with a couple friends. Safety in numbers, etc.
But on the subject of friends, I've come to the conclusion that ... sometimes it's best to just let some of them go. Don't cling on, despite the years and emotions. Everyone has their own life to live. I may not know the full reasons, I may never get a meaningful conclusion, but sometimes ... it's just necessary to let a bridge collapse. I won't burn it, but I'm not going to keep trying to build it on sand.
Metaphors were never my strong suit.
It's not a very glamorous age, for certain - no one really cares, not even yourself. It's another birthday, just like all the others. The magic has long since faded, but at least it's nice to see all the well wishes from friends and family. It's a nice excuse to let yourself go - if with a little drinking, maybe a little over eating, sleeping in, whatever. I certainly had a decent enough celebration, even if it was primarily all by myself.
That isn't to say I was all alone! I had a rather enjoyable evening with several of my online friends - had a really fun evening of IRC group RP for the
ThundermoonTribe community that I've been slowly fostering over the years. I can only hope that our small group continues to grow, as I would love to see more sexy Tauren in the world.There have been plenty of hardships, too. Money has been tight for me - though I live comfortably, I would rather not have the stress of living paycheck to paycheck that seems to have crept back into my life. I decided to try and curb my somewhat crippling social anxiety by talking with my doctor and trying out some prescription meds. Well, turns out that health insurance companies hate it when you use your health insurance for anything but keeping yourself marginally alive - a few hefty bills later, and I've had to stop the meds due to the stress the bills were costing me!
However ... I'm trying to breach past my cold, reclusive shell. I'm planning on attending Anthrocon and MFF this year, despite the rather hurtful experience I had last year at my first con. I'm going to try again, but this time, I at least planned ahead somewhat and am arranging to attend with a couple friends. Safety in numbers, etc.
But on the subject of friends, I've come to the conclusion that ... sometimes it's best to just let some of them go. Don't cling on, despite the years and emotions. Everyone has their own life to live. I may not know the full reasons, I may never get a meaningful conclusion, but sometimes ... it's just necessary to let a bridge collapse. I won't burn it, but I'm not going to keep trying to build it on sand.
Metaphors were never my strong suit.
Hapaidah
~hapaidah
Need to do more IRC RP with taurens! Do it! <3
