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Well, I wanna warn all of you lovelies. [VENT]
11 years ago
PLEASE REFER TO THIS JOURNAL FOR THINGS I WILL/WONT DRAW
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5103149/
JOURNAL STARTS HERE Dear Watchers,
Well here it is I will lay it out for you. Ive been depressed and I have been putting on my mask to make others around me happy when 89% of them have been bitching at me. Mainly about how much I suck at friendship.
*Shrug*
Well honestly, I do. I am very empathetic about pretty much everything. Though do I care if you guys hate me? Yus... yes I do.... It hurts to get texts from those that have my number that tell me that "You cant draw", "You are an illiterate piece of trash" Wellllll, lets say you no longer on on my contacts NOR here in my watch list. I don't understand a lot of things because well, im forgetful. Not ONLY am i forgetful i feel that i may be loosing my mind. Ive not been emotionally well. I dont wanna do ANYTHING besides sleep. No, not even eating makes me happy. Ive done a very caring thing or a very loving friend. Tomorrow guilt that she hates me (even if thats NOT true) my mind will eat at me and turn her against me. I love my firends, will a deep passion. They are like my baby birds. I need to love you all. Though, my mind is slowly eating at me and turning you all against me. Telling me things that you DONT say, like "(insert name here) hates you. The only reason they wanna be your friend is 'cause you are so nice". Clearly i have asked them. They told me quite differently, they loved me and how i am always nice to them. Even if they call me at 3 am complaining about their fucking boyfriend. I cant be full heartedly mean to ANYONE! Well i am TERRIBLY sorry ive pooped on your cheerios... - Forgive me,
Scarlett~
"Not a nice person?" honestly people, consider the amount of time a person eats, sleeps, and works That hardly leaves anyone time to have a solid relationship with all who watch her. (seriously have you seen how big her watcher/watching lists are?)
And Scarlett, don't let anything get you down, you have a bunch of people who love and care about you, you can't be friends with the world (no matter how much our current president wants to )