*Growls* you what is annoying, is my mate’s Sister and brother-in-law. We want to move out, and they heard about this and they had a talk with us, they claimed we talked behind their back, all we did was express our dislike of their use of Drugs, and there acts around the two kids… the fights and token up. They bitch at us for not having jobs… Valley view has none, I dropped over 50 resumes. I had a job as a key holder. But I lost that because of cut backs that the store’s HQ because of the issues in the States. I have never got one call back from anyone since then. I have gotten requests for Interviews down there already. They tell me to keep trying for places in Valleyview, They have opening. I looked into them, they all require training in areas that I have none in, and as such how can I get them? They have threatened my mate, since I been both threatened and assaulted in the last year; I now take all threat as something real. I don’t care if they are his family… if they every touched him I will stop them… but I don’t want to nor wish to, but I will. I don’t feel safe here because I fear that there might be a sting and I want a clean record. I don’t ’at home’ here because of they the have said. I also feel like a burden, I am unable to help his Mother, because I lack a job, I tried everyplace in that tiny, kicky town. I want to work, I want to pay rent, and I need to feel that I can handle my self. I am thankful I got a place to stay in Edmonton and equally thankful that they want we to pay for rent as well… Odd I know but yeah I am glad. I don’t want to be sounding selfish but I want to feel at home, I want to feel like I am doing something, not living on hand outs… I hate that feeling, I am able to work and I want to work… They think otherwise. My mate and I stay in our room because we don’t want to get involved in the fights with them, we do as they ask because it will help release some stress on his mom. Dragyn and I fear that the brother in law is now doing illegal activates… The said they had promises to keep, I have promises to keep as well, we also have a help ourselves so we have a sense of self worth. They call at being self centered, we want to work, we desire to make something of ourselves, and they want us here close to them. They want him to have a car before he moves, there is the bussing system, and taxies… hell even bike and our paws. I own a car, but I can’t use it because of the actions of a step brother who wanted to take a joy ride in a stubble field and ruined my bat, my Alt and starter, and who knows what else. I don’t have the funds to see to it getting fixed, my step brother can’t for he is now in jail for trafficking drugs. They want him to get his grade 12, We can get that once we have a place of our own and two stable job and take night class for his GED, I have my grade 12 as well as what I want to do for a living, and I got the knowledge to go after the other if the main idea fails… They tell Dragyn he has no social skills… Why we living nowhere, we live 15 min out from valleyview and 1 hour from GP… Valleyview is a town that everyone knows everyone and if you don‘t fit in your not welcome, WE don’t go to bars because we don’t wish to be there. It makes it hard for us to be social, we don’t go to GP because it to costly with fuel prices as they are. They say we will not survive in Edmonton that will get murder, all because Jason when he was living there picked fights with the wrong people, we are not him, I know how to avoid problems, and not provoke them. We are fully aware of what things happen in that city, I am a former soldier if I don’t have an option of flight I will only defend myself, my friends and mate. We are both also going to enrol in marshal arts for self defence. They say we will not know anyone, we both call bullshit on that, I have family, my dead mom’s youngest sister, the Edmonton furs that we got to know so well. We tried to explain this. They try to play the guilt trip card…. We been thinking about this move for the November and what are the pros and cons, there are more Pros to this then cons. We are aware of what they may think when we leave, but sometimes you need to be cruel to be nice, we have to leave them, but we plan to send Dragon’s some money every so often to help… we both worry about the welfare of two kids, Dragyn’s baby sister, and his nephew… we don’t want to leave them but we need to get our life set before we even start to help them…
This is the only thing we can do that will benefit the most people, as well as keep promises we set for ourselves as well as the ones we make for other’s… We are thinking about both future as well as the kids, we want to be able to do something for them, but we can’t… not at this moment. I plan to keep the promises to Dragyn to ensure he get his GED and make him something…