The past few days I have been having dreams..dreams I can't remember. I wake up in a cold sweat. I feel anxious, abandonment and just generally lousy feelings. I can't even describe what the dreams are about. Past 2 nights ill go to sleep and sleep for a few hours but wake up and feel like I had just gone to sleep. Has any one had stuff like that before? Nights where you know you dreamed and it was not a great feeling but you can't remember a single thing about them? I feel like this cold/flu thing I have after the con is adding to it. Woke up this morning shaking and just feeling like I had just gone to sleep even though it was 8 hours later.

Not sure how to rid my self of this anxious type feeling either. Usually take a shower sit down relax have some water kind of thing it usually helps but just feeling defeated past two days from this junk -_- hate when I get in this kind of mood makes my outlook on most things lousy.

Also question my self at times. I really do try my best to be there for my friends and be supportive when I can. During moods like this I just sit there and wonder why I do so. A majority of them would not give a second thought if they never spoke with me again. Even when I am hurting on the inside when I see some one else in pain or down I always do my best to speak with them and cheer them up cause some times all it takes is a hug even through the monitor. If I made some ones day better it makes me feel better to. In some ways it makes me feel better to but when I get into stupid moods like this I just wonder if there is such a thing as being to nice.

Sorry for the vent journal I usually don't do them to often but maybe hearing other experiences or suggestions might help me out. May or may not delete later today -_- just writing this has made me feel a little bit calmer.