As some may have seen, the opportunity arised for me to customize a couple of commissioned ball jointed dolls in my pre-existing art style and quality.

I'm finding it's taking a lot longer to make these than it does my ponies, so far~ it's a very interesting, one of a kind experience that I'm honored to have the opportunity to have.

So far it's been a matter of transitioning my skills over to a much larger scale doll base which is also quite different from the smaller ponies I'm used to working on.

Out-wardly, I'm going to be honest, it seems like I'm receiving a lot of negative energy regarding the dolls. I'm very sensitive and embarrass easily, and I don't cope with negative energy very well most of the time. I typically try to shield myself from it and run from it.
My form is logging out of websites such as deviantArt and FurAffinity, not wanting to log back in, and just focus on the dolls as I work on them for days.

I focus on the dolls, as I know there are people who believe in me and trust in what I do. And, also who rely on me to do my absolute best.

The more I work on these dolls, the more I fall in love with them. When they arrived, I was in bed-rest for a week from a bacterial infection that gave my body severe pains that made me unable to move around, and I was also spiking fevers and was fighting to keep the fevers down whether it meant dropping my life, putting everything on hold (I have 2 kids, it isn't easy) and hopping into a hot bath to get the fever to die down.

While I was in this bed rest, I slowly yet surely de-boxed the dolls like a day after they arrived. I stared at them for like half a day, just examining them and everything that arrived in their package~ I was in awe of the elegance and beauty of them, and I actually had to remind myself that it was "okay to touch them, they won't break". xDD

After a bit of examining, I eventually talked myself into figuring out a way to bring my paints to the bed and start working on the dolls while in bed rest. XD It was pretty crazy, but I did make some progress.

After getting to the doctor and getting my antibiotics, I made much more progress on the dolls and was able to focus better on what I was doing.

A handful of people have asked if I plan on doing BJD's ever again-

I have a mixed answer, and here's the reasons:

*Yes, if people buy me the doll bases to work on, pre-order the eyes and wigs for me. I charge for painting and crafting the clothes and for materials/time it takes to dye wigs or any other additions or alterations.

*Yes, if people can accept my style as a permanent one-of-a-kind treasure that is not to be wastefully discarded. I paint in acrylic paints. If customers don't like this, I can put up the option for them to buy artist-grade paints and mail them to me. Other than that I can't afford them on my own.
I don't have to in-set glass eyes permanently, but it is my immediate choice of judgement as I've heard stories about BJD's eyes randomly falling back into their heads and such while they perch on shelves. If someone wants interchangeable glass eyes, I will find a way to make them that way.

*No, not if it's completely on my own. I don't think I could personally ever afford a doll out of my pocket.


*No, if room for diversity isn't allowed. I have diverse methods, styles, quality that are entirely hand-crafted, and if this isn't appreciated, a transaction would not work out.

Pretty much a person has to enter with the mindset that my craft is a one-of-a-kind treasure produced from my heart and soul. I very lovingly hand-sew and layer paints in methods that able me to do them.

So, that's how this is! It's pretty hefty to take on, but things worthwhile usually aren't easy and aren't perfect. But I'm very grateful to my first BJD customer for picking me to experience arting on these wonderful dolls~