I had been on the fence about re-enlisting and had decided to change my decision multiple times and now there's no more time to waffle. If I go in now and do the physical exam required to continue service I'll probably fail and my only options would be to stay in my current career field under a supervisor they I don't like and the feeling is mutual. Or I pass and I go to train for avionics eventually and likely with very little notice as to when I leave. Or and it's looking most likely at this point, I don't go in and take the test I get a call from the commander to outprocess asap. I've served honorably to date and have nothing negative on my record, so I'd be fine there too if I choose to just let that chapter of my life close.

I honestly don't want to continue for another six years, I didn't like my first six and I don't imagine the next will be any better. I'd be selling my next six years of life to them in exchange for training and the chance at a retirement if i stay in for a total of twenty years. I don't really feel like failing and giving them a year for free, I'm not certain I can make the minimum requirements. I hadn't been training because I had thought my not reenlisting was a sure thing. Now I'm uncertain.

If I sit here long enough, the decision will be made for me, and that doesn't seem so bad. It's better than trying and failing or succeeding and continuing to do something I dislike.