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Just a Note
17 years ago
I promise this isn't as emo-ish as it sounds. It's just some thoughts that need to get out.
As my year of chaos gradually comes to a close, I realize now that I was right on the money when I dubbed my 23rd year that. For those that are wondering what it is by me dubbing this my year of chaos, the number 23 is supposedly the number for the Eris, Goddess of Chaos. So many things in my life have changed. Acquaintances came and went and I learned who my friends really were. I attended my first Pride fest. My family learned I was gay. Job changes. Me finally getting out of Covington (hopefully for good)... Skies above, I could go on, but these were the most prominent.
I must admit, I'm going to miss Covington. For the longest time I considered it home, and a small part of me still considers it that. However, as things changed I realized how ill-suited I was for this town. After all, how does a gay, somewhat vegetarian artist fit in a small, southern town?
Hopefully by this time next year or the summer after my roomies and I will be heading out to Seattle. Those that know me are probably surprised seeing as I've been saying how much I loathe the west coast. Granted, I Have yet to be all over the west coast - I've only been to southern California. Maybe Seattle will change my view of things.
Another thing I think about is maybe the reason I want to set out of Covington so badly is because I'm running. I wasn't exactly thrilled when my family found out I was gay (it was an accident on my cousin's behalf). They sometimes seem to be walking on eggshells around me, or at other times flat out saying that I don't know what I want, I haven't given men a chance. So maybe I am running from the problem instead of trying to fix it. In any case, I know at least my roommates are accepting and don't care what religion, sexuality, etc I am, and for that I'm thankful.
As the year draws to a close I hope those of you that set goals were able to reach them. For those that didn't, at least you tried, ja? May your Gods/Goddesses smile upon you in the coming year.
As my year of chaos gradually comes to a close, I realize now that I was right on the money when I dubbed my 23rd year that. For those that are wondering what it is by me dubbing this my year of chaos, the number 23 is supposedly the number for the Eris, Goddess of Chaos. So many things in my life have changed. Acquaintances came and went and I learned who my friends really were. I attended my first Pride fest. My family learned I was gay. Job changes. Me finally getting out of Covington (hopefully for good)... Skies above, I could go on, but these were the most prominent.
I must admit, I'm going to miss Covington. For the longest time I considered it home, and a small part of me still considers it that. However, as things changed I realized how ill-suited I was for this town. After all, how does a gay, somewhat vegetarian artist fit in a small, southern town?
Hopefully by this time next year or the summer after my roomies and I will be heading out to Seattle. Those that know me are probably surprised seeing as I've been saying how much I loathe the west coast. Granted, I Have yet to be all over the west coast - I've only been to southern California. Maybe Seattle will change my view of things.
Another thing I think about is maybe the reason I want to set out of Covington so badly is because I'm running. I wasn't exactly thrilled when my family found out I was gay (it was an accident on my cousin's behalf). They sometimes seem to be walking on eggshells around me, or at other times flat out saying that I don't know what I want, I haven't given men a chance. So maybe I am running from the problem instead of trying to fix it. In any case, I know at least my roommates are accepting and don't care what religion, sexuality, etc I am, and for that I'm thankful.
As the year draws to a close I hope those of you that set goals were able to reach them. For those that didn't, at least you tried, ja? May your Gods/Goddesses smile upon you in the coming year.
You know, 2008 has been chaotic for a lot of people, and I will admit you seem to have to deal with a lot more than I have, but hopefully with the coming New Year things will improve.
As for the idea of you maybe running, well, I dunno if I would call it running, maybe rather it's just stepping outside for a bit to get things together before return to try and make amends. A change of setting and a time to calm down might be a good thing for you.
Still, I hope you will keep in touch, I miss talking with you (and you promised me DnD, lol). I wish you all the best of luck in whatever the futire may hold.
Heh. Glad someone sees it as not running and just stepping forward. It means a lot.
And the DnD promise will go through! I do have to bring out Sijji. My herm monk is just far too awesome to forget about!