i've decided to put these here
a) because i need an outlet. and b) because i need to work on being more open about my emotions.

if you do read it though....then, thanks for listening

i've been feeling pretty weird lately..a bit dark, sour maybe is a good way to descibe it, i feel like i'm just wasting my time with what i'm doing... im too scared to move out from my parents place, but i know i have to, otherwise i'll just be trapped in a restricted life forever..and im scared of my friends giving up on me as well...which is why i'm always trying to bury my emotions like i do, because i dont want people to think im not worth their time...all together it just makes me feel tired and downhearted, fortunately i have the love of my friends to get me through anything i face..so i know i'll be ok in the end