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April already (And anxiety update)
11 years ago
Steam ID - SevenFisher
What the, March went over quick! Still if it means hot days are coming soon then I'm all for it. Anyway I've learned that my anxiety is getting loads better, I was be able to drink without worrying too much. Of course, I do feel "uneasy" but I can still enjoy a pint without freaking out.
I generally feel uneasy most of time which is better really, if it stays this level I'd be okay with it but hopefully it'll improve. I've been doing stuff I wanted to do anyway, so that's some progress! Will help further when I finally finish my bedroom... but been at sisters' lot which doesn't really help. As much as I love my sister it annoys me having to sleep there so often because I don't really have lot of 'freedom'. While I say that I mean trivial things. Like I can't really cook eggs without getting moaned at - and god forbid if I cook something then don't clean straight away as I want to enjoy meal and chill for bit, cause I'll be moaned at doing that even if she does same thing in first place anyway!
Hopefully after weekend's over I'm only needed for 3 days then go home on Wednesday, and then I'll finish re-decorating my room... or at least.... wall scraping. Not long to go, and I'm saving good amount of money for bed but will save more just to make sure. I do plan to buy computer desk after the bed (and wallpapers/paints if needed) so there's that.
The only problems I'd like to try get solved over next time is:
- Be confident when talking. I love to talk, and I want to make more friends. While I'm not hugely awkward person, I still am very shy and anxiety makes it even harder. Getting better though - although new people are still difficult to do.
- Getting a job but then again, I'm not going to be too stressed about it. Honestly finding a job is like finding pin in haystack these days so all I can do is do my best and search at my own pace (Job Centre Plus can fuck off with their "forceful" ways, my way works ta)
- Learn how to drive. No seriously I have provisional licence in 2012 and yet I haven't started lessons why I do this
- Get used to idea of going to Glasgow. Before I don't really like Glasgow but was able to go there anyway without worries. Now I dread idea of going there. This is last thing, and can be optional thing because honestly I don't like Glasgow. It's just for furmeets (which I'd like to attend again) and considering there's possibly of needing to work there.
So yeah something to do over April. My bedroom is main goal, though - hopefully I can get it almost done before May is here.
I guess that's all I want to say... oh yeah I've been using Twitter / Skype again, same screen name (SevenFisher) so if you want to follow/chat, feel free! Will try go on Skype when I'm at sisters'.
I generally feel uneasy most of time which is better really, if it stays this level I'd be okay with it but hopefully it'll improve. I've been doing stuff I wanted to do anyway, so that's some progress! Will help further when I finally finish my bedroom... but been at sisters' lot which doesn't really help. As much as I love my sister it annoys me having to sleep there so often because I don't really have lot of 'freedom'. While I say that I mean trivial things. Like I can't really cook eggs without getting moaned at - and god forbid if I cook something then don't clean straight away as I want to enjoy meal and chill for bit, cause I'll be moaned at doing that even if she does same thing in first place anyway!
Hopefully after weekend's over I'm only needed for 3 days then go home on Wednesday, and then I'll finish re-decorating my room... or at least.... wall scraping. Not long to go, and I'm saving good amount of money for bed but will save more just to make sure. I do plan to buy computer desk after the bed (and wallpapers/paints if needed) so there's that.
The only problems I'd like to try get solved over next time is:
- Be confident when talking. I love to talk, and I want to make more friends. While I'm not hugely awkward person, I still am very shy and anxiety makes it even harder. Getting better though - although new people are still difficult to do.
- Getting a job but then again, I'm not going to be too stressed about it. Honestly finding a job is like finding pin in haystack these days so all I can do is do my best and search at my own pace (Job Centre Plus can fuck off with their "forceful" ways, my way works ta)
- Learn how to drive. No seriously I have provisional licence in 2012 and yet I haven't started lessons why I do this
- Get used to idea of going to Glasgow. Before I don't really like Glasgow but was able to go there anyway without worries. Now I dread idea of going there. This is last thing, and can be optional thing because honestly I don't like Glasgow. It's just for furmeets (which I'd like to attend again) and considering there's possibly of needing to work there.
So yeah something to do over April. My bedroom is main goal, though - hopefully I can get it almost done before May is here.
I guess that's all I want to say... oh yeah I've been using Twitter / Skype again, same screen name (SevenFisher) so if you want to follow/chat, feel free! Will try go on Skype when I'm at sisters'.
