So like lately I been having feelings of life been sucked out of me, Me wishing that there was something better that the love that was once between us starts to fade fast and there is nothing more I can do as I fight a losing battle. I have no idea what I can do anymore what I can say to make things right. I feel walls rebuild themselves and I hurt when I smile. I feel as if I have found myself in another misfortune and now it lies here in front of me.


I trust him with my heart and I feel it being slowly crushed by the weight of the feelings of lost.
I feel the tides of emotions flood over me when I think of impure things that you hide.
Worlds seem far apart even when I am sitting right next to them.
Life seems faded and less vibrant.
When I once flied as high as a bird to fall flat on my face as I was a boulder.

I trust him with everything he is my best friend and lover. He made and makes my life complete, I feel as if he pushes me away as if I am discarded clothing that he once liked. I feel as if he finds this job that he will soon find another lover and I start to doubt myself. I love him with all my heart, I would sell my soul to make things better to make things better then what they are right now.

I feel lost and hurt and at this point I am just rambling. I hope I am looking too deep into this.