Unfortunately life has been kicking me in the teeth, and I'm trying to balance work with getting myself into routine and keep my mind sane.

I have to get my supplies to make my badges from my home and will be obtaining them on Friday. Until then, I have no way of printing/laminating and obviously mailing the finished products. As such, I'll be spending a lot of time printing my badges and making them ready to send off once I have everything in hand.

For my friends, I'm not prepared to start streaming again, Skype has been shut off, and I'm very reclusive at the moment. I appreciate all of the notes I've recieved from you guys worrying about whats going on. Some cases of me not talking have been because theres just been too much to do and I've had to bolt away. :/ My happiness, health, and sanity are all in question, and it's become quite an extreme case of extreme stress and depression. I'm taking the necessary steps to try to right myself deep down before I try righting everything else. Work keeps me sane and gives me something to look forward to.

The biggest thing for you guys to know is I'm safe and sound, being watched over by a loving family, and it's lovely to feel like I've stepped into my idea of a "normal" environment. My stomach problems since being here have eased away, have been able to eat dairy without fear of stomach lash back, am able to go outside if I so wish to without feeling unsafe or uncomfortable, and I feel safe in these walls. They might not sound like major hurdles to get over, but having suffered for two years now with stomach cramps on a daily basis from a form of IBS, we've come to find its stress related and I just needed to completely relax and finally let my guard down. I want to get through all of this without being sent on medication to help me deal with the problems. I can clearly see where problems have arised and am trying to deal with them piece by piece.
That said, it's a very small portion of whats been happening, but at least you have a better idea of what happened without barfing my problems on the internet. I like trying to be as professional as I can, but when I've streamed every day for ages and then cold turkey - :| Im sorry Ive made y'all worry.

I'm not posting this for pity, or for comments. I'm doing the right things to sort evrything out, and will hopefully come out happier and healthier over time.