Hey folks, Bootz here

As a lot of you know I've recently moved back home to the city of NY, I did so because things went a bit south back in NH....very south. I haven't really given many details because I've felt that it was better to not give off the harsh reality of the situation of my last journal where I said me and (thou who shalt not be named out of what little respect I have) went off on our own ways on neutral terms, well as some of you know it wasn't very neutral and for those that don't...it was about as neutral as a shotgun wedding.

I've been debating on how to really talk about this let alone even post about it without discrediting the other person cause as most of you will know, I don't like doing that at all. But you know what? There's no nice way to really say this so I'm gonna do something a little different and forget my nature for a bit.

Short answer: The bitch dumped my ass.

Long answer: Bitch dumped my ass for some other pretty boy in West Virginia and decided to tell me two weeks after I bother getting settled over there trying to get a job and what not. Then while she gets all lovey dovey I have to hear about it every day getting ignored, taken advantage of, used and taken for granted up till they decided that they wanted to remember that I was there. Of course at this point she figured we were getting distant actually wondering why it was happening when the bitch didn't even fucking give a shit how I felt in the first place. And wouldn't you know it things didn't work out for her in West Virginia in fact the fucking trip didn't even happen. In fact the fucker she left me for didn't even bother to fight for her to stay bumming her off to another friend she made on the net who didn't even WANT to fucking put up with her sorry ass. So with nowhere else to go she decides to go back and call for her father to pick her up the next day practically leaving my ass out to go to another shelter because SHE couldn't deal living there because people didn't like her. Oh yeah apparently people didn't like her when she gave them a MILLION reasons why. She didn't do her chores. She was messy as hell. She always had something to say and had a "holier than thou" attitude which ended up giving her a LOT more grief when people didn't wanna deal with it. Hell I'll be self indulgent and say that people liked ME more than they liked her, mainly cause I cleaned up after myself, offered to help around the area and was genuinely and actually NICE to them treating them like human beings rather than people who were trying to fucking steal from her and hurt her like she likes to picture. Here's something, if she tries to tell you that the shelter was hell it's bullshit. It was only hell because she had to get up off her ass and contribute which she never fucking did. But back on point, had it not been for her sister, who I swear she does not fucking deserve as a sister, I would've been on the street. And where things would've ended on a high note two days later I get a call where she bitches at me for looking at someone on cam while we were 'still together as a couple' before she up and dumped me. Here's the truth. She dumped me way before that point. She was already saying that I should look for other people. SHE was already texting and taking pics of her tits for other people yet I get shit because I watched a friend. Because that makes TOTAL sense. So yeah, after that she up and causes a load of crap, through her sister's phone no les just to cause more shit when I offered to take responsibility for it cause it was my doing anyway. Buuuut nope! She just up and causes more shit, thank god me and said friend settled it and are back to being close friends but yeah for those who wanna know why we're not talking there ya go. The real reason right there.

Ya know what's worse? Because of this I haven't been really happy to say the least, to say I've been absolutely depressed would be the more accurate. I see people together on the streets, I hear about my friends with their mates and how everythings all hunky dory for them and I get mad. I get mad because all I've gotten was crap and the way it all ended for me was more than crap. But it's not their fault. It's not their fault that I got stuck with someone who up and fucking turned on me making it all about her. It's not my fault hat in the end she was the one out for herself rather than trying to work together. And if anything it's certainly not their fault that I was too fucking nice to her when on those last days we saw each other I should've told her to up and go take a jump of a fucking leap off a cliff rather than to call me ANYTHING again. What's worse, even if karma came down on her beatin on that ass with a two by four it wouldn't matter, why you ask? It doesn't matter because she doesn't care. She don't care who she hurt, she don't care who's hurt and she certainly doesn't care how she hurts. So long as she's right, your wrong, she gets her point across and makes other people hurt.

Well ya know what? I might not be able to get the chance to really do this ever again since this is one of the VERY few times I've actually up and just explode like this but fuck it why not?

Fuck you. Fuck you for all the things that you've put me through on our last days in your home state. Fuck you for all the back handed apologies you've given me only to just be done with me and go back to your other boy toy who up and just left your ass. Fuck you for leaving me to do your chores and cleaning up after you just because you were too lazy to get up off your fat ass. Fuck you for even BOTHERING to try and get all sweet with me after you've treated me like a sac of crap for an entire day just cause things weren't going your way. Fuck you for blaming your bullshit on "you not having your meds" I know plenty of people who don't have their meds and even THEY check themselves before they do HALF the stupid shit that you do. Fuck you for the times I almost got a decent job and you bitched just because you thought I'd end up leaving you behind, I left home for you so why the fuck would I leave you stranded? Hell ya fuckin left me stranded so if anything you're no stranger to fucking people over. I could go on and on and on but if anything FUCK YOU for taking everything I've ever done for you and tossing it right back in my face acting as if it was all nothing. From the moment we met all the way to now, when I fought for you to stay in my home when that douche back in West Virginia wouldn't even fucking TRY to convince you to stay in his household. For all the crap I had to endure from you and all the bullets I had to bite just to avoid a fight with your stupid, prideful, uncaring, selfish, conceited, over opinionated and condescending ass. Fuck. You. Have fun trying to call up your sister if things don't go well- Oh wait. Last time you did that she didn't wanna bother after the crap you put her through. Never mind, in that case have a nice life and go to hell ^w^

There, dunno if I got it outa my system but fuck if it doesn't feel good to get it out in a decent medium. Now if you'll excuse me I need to go and get some air, need to so something other than sit around and bitch today.