Mostly on what I can or can't accomplish in a short amount of time. I need at least a month and a half to finish a full suit (with padding). Maybe a little less without padding but probably still the same amount of time. I worked myself to the bone. My eyes are sore, I ended up making myself feel sick with stress...

However...

I will so take crying and panicking over finishing a costume over how I feel working a dull customer service type job any day. At the very least when I'm working (or panicking) over a costume, I feel like I'm accomplishing something. While a job gives me a steady paycheck, I can't say that I feel like I'm accomplishing anything with it. I feel like I'm wasting valuable time and I dislike that feeling more than feeling like a complete and utter wreck. I'm pretty proud of what I did get done and how the costume is looking so far.

I do need a ton of rest it feels like though...

Regardless I still like making costumes somehow. I know a lot of people fall out of love with cosplay/costuming when it starts feeling stressful. I don't. I suppose that's what it means to really find something that you love doing. I just gotta remember to not push myself so hard next time. Find a way to slow down on everything that I want to do and make. If I don't, then I won't accomplish anything.

For that reason, I'm thinking of phasing out doing illustration commissions and focusing more on sewing stuff. After I finish these last few commissions of course. I'll still do badges when there's a con coming up (I'll open for Bronycon badges around June or so). I also want to do a sketchbook auction. But in terms of large scale illustrations or my typical character illustrations, probably not so much unless it's an auction.

After this fursuit is done, I may open up for a partial suit or a suit head or two (one or the other). People seem to respond to my fursuit work better than illustrations now, plus I like costuming more than illustrating so I think it's only natural that I gravitate more towards that.

I'll work all that stuff out later. For now, I'm just gonna rest today. I pushed myself too hard with this costume but at least I found out my limit of how quickly I can work. I won't try that again. Next time I wanna do something like this (most likely next year), I'll make sure I've started it way in advance.