Well, things have been a roller coaster this past month, good god. I mean, I'm on 1000mg of antibiotics, I'm off of them, I'm on them again...then off of them, now I'm on Himura injections every two works to try to heal and keep the inflammation of my GI tract down.

That, and this last weekend I had an EPIC fucking panic attack, I mean it was truly epic. So bad that due to a pain in my side, I ended up getting a blood test and a CT scan, and it turned out to be gas. So now I'm saying hello to a very old friend, a friend I have not spoken to in years, a good friend: Lorazepam.

One tiny little 1mg pill as a reset switch to get me sleeping again, get me in a normal rythm again and stave off this anxiety, to the point that I hope to be around a bit more, getting back into the normal swing of things.

Dont take life for granted man, live day by day.