Its been a while, hasn't it

This is not so much a life update, but whats being going on in my mind. Recently my job has been keeping me form really wanting to do anything. It just
has been sapping any creativity i've had. Now, the problem with that is that my mind tends to go to well....darker places. I've been thinking about death quite
a bit(not suicide). Recently found a thread on reddit about it, and it for the most part made me feel....kinda better...but also apprehensive. I know that thinking of ones own mortality is a normal thing, but what about ones non-existence? The one thing mention in the thread was about how there is no pain, that people did feel at peace. i dunno...it tends to make me think of things i haven't done.