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>>i need help.
11 years ago
It's all about fighting wars you'll never win...
I can't do this on my own anymore. It's all become too much for me -- I don't know how to overcome it. Debt, depression, dreams I've left behind me. There's something more to life that I haven't been able to find in a long time.
I feel guilty for letting little things make me happy. I shouldn't be this excited for the new Pokemon games. I'm an adult, and I should be focusing on a career. Twitch Plays Pokemon shouldn't be that enjoyable for me. I should stop wasting my time. But you know what? Fuck that. Fuck it. If those things are what help me to get out of bed every morning, then awesome. I have a reason to go on living... because it's been pretty damn hard to find any other way to get my ass going. Between the pain I feel physically and emotionally, I'm at my breaking point.
I wish I could go to my family and friends and just spill my guts. But I feel like this is my battle to fight alone... and that's wrong. I can't do this alone. They're willing to help me and I can't bring myself to bother anybody else with my depression. To my friends on here who have offered a shoulder or ear, thank you... really. When I'm ready, I'll be there. Just give me time.
I just want to be happy again.
Sure, they may not play an integral role in your future. They may not be your next big breakthrough or lead you to riches. But they get you out of bed, they keep you looking forward to something, and they make tomorrow worth waking up for. So are they really the little things, anymore?
Just keep your head above water and fight through this, I KNOW you can do it. Things suck now, and they might for a while longer. But it will pass, and things will get better. If you're in a valley, there's gotta be a mountain nearby. Just keep on keepin' on. <3
And hey, when you're down and out, you can use my go-to pick-me-up line.
at least I'm not in North Korea.