Honestly I'm not. I know that I have been a bit silent lately but I assure you I have a good reason. Where to start... I guess at the beginning really.

Many know, but not a lot of the newer people know it, my dad was diagnosed with non alcohol related chirrosis of the liver quite a whole ago. It has gotten worse over the last little while. So bad that as of Friday he was officially placed on the organ transplant list. The last few months have been endless appointments in Toronto with the clinics there getting him tested and retested. I am the only one in the family who can make these trips as my brother and sister-in-law are unable to do the trips due to their own illnesses and my mother is housebound at this time. A lot has fallen on my brothers shoulders taking care of the 2 kids and our parents as he is living with them. I am having to juggle work as well as my home life and filling in all the gaps that my brother can't cover. This has left me pretty stretched thin. I barely have really any time for myself. People just tell me where to be and when and I follow.

To top it all off my workload has increased quite a lot as I am basically sorta filling in for my boss while he is recovering from cancer surgery. Over the last year my duties at work have steadily increased while my pay has not. I am now operating well above my pay grade, doing twice the workload of my coworker for no difference in pay. Really kinda sucks to be honest we were both hired to do the same job but I have taken on the responsibility of 2 major systems at work, going to training classes to get certified in these systems and I have little to show for the extra effort. Now in June I am off to Las Vegas for more training and courses while my coworker doesn't do anything to further assist. Hell after those courses I will probably be going to some programming courses to get yet another certification.

The one fun thing I guess I can take from all this is that my boss made a joke before a meeting just days before his surgery that he was putting me in charge in his absence. It is not really the case, as everyone is still in touch with him and he is still being consulted on all matters. The thing is that all the high level people in this meeting accepted that i was "in charge" and seemed to be welcoming of that. I guess they have some faith in my abilities even if I don't. It was just an off the cuff remark and not to be taken seriously but so far it is all that is motivating me right now. He also said yesterday in a Skype message that he found it comforting for him in his recovery (which can be about a month) to know that things were "In good hands".

The level of stress with family, work and home is really starting to get to me. Hell I am just starting an almost 19 day day stretch of work, but at any time I can get the call to go to Toronto for the transplant.

I guess the TL;DR version is work is ample, stress is much and the bitching continues as usual.

I may MAY get a chance to throw the carburetor on my BMW on my only day off this Saturday, I guess I have that to look forward to. It is about the only thing I have right now.

That is the state of me right now I guess. I apologize for any spelling errors, this was all typed out on my tablet, while in bed trying to fall asleep.