so I've just been doing really horribly lately. life has become so unbearable. it used to be like i would be depressed and anxious for some of the day and it would maybe go away, and at least i had some will to live. but now i'm just depressed and anxious and suicidal all throughout the day and it doesn't really go away. it makes doing anything so hard. whenever i try to do any sort of work, i get anxiety and i hate it. that's why i haven't been posting art or anything lately, because i keep having anxiety attacks. it fucking sucks and all i want to do is be happy and succeed.
i would much rather be dead right now, really. that's all i can think of, how much i want to die. but apparently "too many people care about me", so i'm stuck living like this. i just hope there's a fucking point of having to go through all of this.