MY PARENT'S ARE PISSING ME OFF.
11 years ago
Waaaaassssup Another journal entry.
Okay so I was preasured into telling them you know that I was gay. Okay at first they laughed because they didn't believe me. but now their going on and on about how I'm not ACTING gay.
so my question is. how do you act gay. and I asked them they.
and hey told me I wouldn't like lego's or star wars as i was yonger.
then they went on to telling me how all his friends kept on telling him that I was ALL MAN.
so now appearently I'm not all man cause Now I'm gay.
DAMN I WISH I WOULD OF WAITED A LITTLE LONGER TO TELL THEM.
Now this is another thing. their telling me how I must be forcing my self to be gay. how I'm not naturally gay. how I heard someone tell me I was gay and I want to believe it. BULL SHIT. I've been gay for as long as I can remember.
I just have constantly been hiding it you know. having guy's as friend's. cause appearently gay guy's don't have guy friends.
Also their telling me at first that it was too soon for me to know for sure. that I was too young. But now their telling me there would of been signs of me being gay alot earlier.
I just hate how when I said what their saying is just steario typing. they got soo pissed at me. AGH. like they know who I am. hell they can't even have a conversation with me with out them getting pissed.
I so wanted to just say. It's my life screw you if you don't like it but I guess that's for later on in life when I have a boy friend.
Please of someone can help me in any way or have any advice for me please tell me. cause I don't know what to do. their hating me ever sense I told them and even more bricks are being put in place between me and them.
so my question is. how do you act gay. and I asked them they.
and hey told me I wouldn't like lego's or star wars as i was yonger.
then they went on to telling me how all his friends kept on telling him that I was ALL MAN.
so now appearently I'm not all man cause Now I'm gay.
DAMN I WISH I WOULD OF WAITED A LITTLE LONGER TO TELL THEM.
Now this is another thing. their telling me how I must be forcing my self to be gay. how I'm not naturally gay. how I heard someone tell me I was gay and I want to believe it. BULL SHIT. I've been gay for as long as I can remember.
I just have constantly been hiding it you know. having guy's as friend's. cause appearently gay guy's don't have guy friends.
Also their telling me at first that it was too soon for me to know for sure. that I was too young. But now their telling me there would of been signs of me being gay alot earlier.
I just hate how when I said what their saying is just steario typing. they got soo pissed at me. AGH. like they know who I am. hell they can't even have a conversation with me with out them getting pissed.
I so wanted to just say. It's my life screw you if you don't like it but I guess that's for later on in life when I have a boy friend.
Please of someone can help me in any way or have any advice for me please tell me. cause I don't know what to do. their hating me ever sense I told them and even more bricks are being put in place between me and them.
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if it dose not, then give them time, eventually they will accept you for who you are again
they said they don't want to do that.
see thy don't mind me being gay.
If they thought I wasn't trying to be gay.
if they thought it was natural. they wouldn't care.
but they think someone else is making me gay.
i am sure that they still love you
well thank you.
and its not your choice that you think guys are hot as hell. :3
so don't lissen to anyone that tells you different! Cause you sre who you are and NO ONE can take that away from you...
And you know i'll always be there for you, cause you're like an awesome brother to me!
if you want you can write a vent note to me... love ya *hugs you tight while pating you back lightly* ;w;
And I won't it'll tke heaven hell and the earth to make me even think about not being who I am.
your parents should accept it :( and you would tell them soon or later, so you got it out now, maybe thats one good thing for now and can think about it
honestly, i don't know what my interest in is, and i have told my mom, that i didnt know, and my mom accepted it, she said she would be happy if i would come with a girl or boy at home, but my dad, really pissed me off, and wanted to take me to a place to get that idea out of my head, and now i just don't know because my dad forces me to be straight, like you have
but its actual really good that you know you like men, so you won't make a mistake later you know (i think.. don't get me wrong plz)
I think you just should try to not let it show and just pretend it didnt happen that you have said it, sure, they will remember it, but hopefully soon or later, will think about it and accept you who you are, and not just keep trying to force you to be straight
if you want to talk or anything, i am right here for you *hugs* and i hope you are doing alright ^-^
its weird though that they think you choose.. well
if you every want to talk i am here
and you are who you are, and let no one change that!
perfect example.
I wouldn't of broke up with you if I thought i wouldn't hurt you cause I was gay. but I loved being with you. then I thought about it and
the funny thing is sometimes I imagined you as a guy. XD
anyways i am here if you need help with anything, ANYTHING
Car's and dragons.
and i have about 900 photos of dragons on my computer and fbook
That is so cool. The dragon part I like. I'm not a big fan of car's.
But okay that's cool bud.
everyone is different
to be honest, i sometimes miss it, but i understand you completely :)
and i also loved being with you, still do! but then more like friends ;)
you are truly my best friend on here! so thank you for that josh
I hope they might actually accept me for ho I am for once. but tht'll have to wait till I'm an actual person.
tl;dr
Parents invaded privacy and found out I had a boyfriend in California. .-.
All I can say is I hope things go okay and get better. It will get better though, and best of luck to you :3
But it just amkes me so mad when they try and preasure me into being straight. like "how do you know you don't like girls if you never dated one"
Okay first of all people aren't like Ice cream flavors you line up and see which one's you like.
You pick which ever is appealing to you. and for me that's guy's cause thay are Hot as fuck.
But in my case, being Pansexual, all "flavors" appeal to me c: ...
Except nuts. I don't like nuts. .-.
Christ I'm being terrible, sorry xD ...
I totally get that though. My parents a few years back, when I "came out" they said in short: Lolno, you just haven't met the right gal yet, and have only been around dudes.
Then they started to believe me, and it got worse! :D They started blaming themselves for me being the way I am, because they didn't teach me right .-.
Also straight up prayed in front of me, preaching, telling the devil to get the hell out of me and back to hell .-.
It was just terrible... .-.
I'm sure given time your parents can adjust, and hopefully you can still have a decent relationship with them. Because mine is wrecked entirely with my parents .~. ...
Anywho, yeah. It'll be better eventually, and hell. Do what I saw on tumblr if you want. .-.
Ask them if they like llamas, sexually and so on, if they say no, then say they haven't met the right llama, and pour all sorts of llama pics on their faces c: ...
NEWS FLASH
I haven't changed a bit I'll still fish and play paint ball with him. just maybe I'll be looking at the other guy's a little more. XD
But that's the thing. if they were the one's to think I was gay. they would have no problem. but it's the fact that I told them and they didn't have a clue that makes them not believe me and want me to change.
ike my dad still is constantly trying to set me up with people. but in the end all that happens is that we start talking about boy's and about other thing's. GIRLS FRICKIN ROCK. but I'm not sexually attracted to them.
and he doesn't believe this like he's inside my head. Because apprealty taking a major in collage makes you be able to stop and see every gay guy in the world.
he got really pissed when I said. like he said I wouldn't like lego's growing up.
I said "that's a steario type"
He got so mad He was like "LIKE HELL IT'S IS. this is what you'd be doing as a young boy if you were gay.
BUut earlier when i first told them they were like NO NO. your too young you don't know shit yet. you just haven't tried it with a girl yet.
the thing is that I have. and I didn't like it. I also tried it with a guy and I liked it.
SO he need's to get off my ass and let me live. I can't wait till collage when I move out.
Gotta just LOVE it when parents or family members, or whoever just go on like that though .-. ...
And yeah, my dad reacted just like that. In fact, I think he still thinks it was just a phase, and that I'm "better" now xD ...
I admit I haven't tried it with a girl, but I have with a guy. Three in fact .-. I've always liked both genders and sexes, and so on. Just never gained the courage to ask anyone out .-.
It'll definitely get better though, just don't go all shovey-rainbow-gayness in his face and shit. Idunno. I really don't know xD Sorry .w. ...
I guess I'm saying don't shove it all in his face, or something. (God am I just dead .-.)
Anyways, girls are awesome. I get to talk about butts with them on occasion, and so on c: ... In fact, I was only friend with one girl until I "came out". Now I has many :3 ...
And good, keep doing things with your father and family. I totally stopped with mine, family and so on, and I honestly regret it. If I could go back, with the warnings and so on, I would so do it.
But nah, I basically hate half my family now because of my choices.
And I leave you with this, a quote from my straight friend, Seraphin_Velzets, who literally just sent this to me. Hope you don't mind, but he's a tad creepy, and so am I, and we were ind of talking about what we are in this journal. c: ...
"It's my opinion that most parents are going to have a slight state of disbelief because of the bad stereotypes that exist.... Same with friends... But your friends and family love you and care about you, at some point they will see it's nothing to make a huge deal about, and they shouldn't worry. Im sure you will both be great people regardless. Maybe even stronger for what you go through. Life isn't easy, especially if your gay, but living through it, dealing with what shit it may bring only grows your strength, shows you deserve and will get the good that comes from it. I respect you greatly for coming out, it takes guts. Im sure your family will support you, just give it time :)"
And I too, respect you for coming out, even if it was mildly forced/pressured. It's never, ever easy. <3
Thank you
I didn't want to make a problem for you all. but thank you.
And best of luck to you as well.
Lol on all this goofiness. I found out I was bisexual a few years ago, and I don't think there's a way to be rid of it. It may be redundant to say so, but I'd suggest just being yourself.
Take a deep breath buddy. They'll either accept you for exactly how you are, or they'll just keep tinkering with their 'gaydar' till they get it right.
*hugs you*
*hug's you*
they can belive what they want but I'm gay and nothing will change that. I don't know if that's possible.