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A Personal Reflection
11 years ago
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Ah, memorial day. It's a time of rejoicing and honoring those who had fallen in the heat of battle for the United States... or just an excuse to go to the beach and have a great BBQ. Your pick. But, today has gotten me thinking, a lot. After some usual yard work at home, I got online to see how all of my friends were doing. It's always great to see good news coming from them. When the conversations started to die down though, I figured I would spend some time doing RP's.
Ever hear the expression. "Look before you leap?" It means to not make assumptions before doing something potentially dangerous or reckless. Well, this expressions applies to anything you do, even online on IM places like Skype and F-Chat. It's incredibly important to pay attention to your conversations and make sure all parties you interact with are satisfied. I pushed myself a bit too much today and found myself ignoring a close friend of mine (who I won't mention because I despise singling people out and it's against the rules) when they wanted some of my insight into a indepth matter they wanted resolved and discussed. We reached a point in the conversation where I made an assumption that this person didn't want to continue discussing the issue at hand.
So, I quietly left the conversation to RP. This person poked me. Needless to say, there was more to be discussed and I ended up making the person feel quite ignored and not worth caring about. To say this hurts my soul is an understatement. I personally strive to make as people happy around me as I can. My family has tasked me to live up to a lot of high standards in everything I do. Due to that, I end up getting taken advantage of periodically in my moments of weakness. So, when I let things like this slip by, I start to question my true priorities. What do I truly look for in the people I talk with everyday online? Have I really devolved into wanting to do only smutty RP's in my free time instead of being a good friend and listen to others when they need me? The growing reality of this scenario terrifies me. I don't want to be like that. I want to respect others time and leave the sexy/world building stuff for when nothing is truly going on. I can't put self interests in place of others when they need it. My extended silence spoke a ton more than words, and I felt like I've been punched right in my heart.
But then again, I'm also glad this happened to me. Self reflection is incredibly important once in a while. And often enough, I need a kick in the rear to set my life straight. So, to all of my RP mates, if I have to bail to take care of another person online, please respect my decision to do so. That's all I ask. It's far too easy to get into too many conversations online and lose track of the ones you care about the most. For other RP enthusiasts out there, I hope this reflection has helped in examining your own life as well. The world needs to communicate with each other more. Going at it alone and trying to shove problems under the rug isn't going to change anything.
Take care everyone! I hope to have a more positive journal next time. :)
Zeus
P.S. I'm not depressed. I just felt eager to share an experience I had to rest of my followers, hoping someone can learn from my mistakes. ;)
Ever hear the expression. "Look before you leap?" It means to not make assumptions before doing something potentially dangerous or reckless. Well, this expressions applies to anything you do, even online on IM places like Skype and F-Chat. It's incredibly important to pay attention to your conversations and make sure all parties you interact with are satisfied. I pushed myself a bit too much today and found myself ignoring a close friend of mine (who I won't mention because I despise singling people out and it's against the rules) when they wanted some of my insight into a indepth matter they wanted resolved and discussed. We reached a point in the conversation where I made an assumption that this person didn't want to continue discussing the issue at hand.
So, I quietly left the conversation to RP. This person poked me. Needless to say, there was more to be discussed and I ended up making the person feel quite ignored and not worth caring about. To say this hurts my soul is an understatement. I personally strive to make as people happy around me as I can. My family has tasked me to live up to a lot of high standards in everything I do. Due to that, I end up getting taken advantage of periodically in my moments of weakness. So, when I let things like this slip by, I start to question my true priorities. What do I truly look for in the people I talk with everyday online? Have I really devolved into wanting to do only smutty RP's in my free time instead of being a good friend and listen to others when they need me? The growing reality of this scenario terrifies me. I don't want to be like that. I want to respect others time and leave the sexy/world building stuff for when nothing is truly going on. I can't put self interests in place of others when they need it. My extended silence spoke a ton more than words, and I felt like I've been punched right in my heart.
But then again, I'm also glad this happened to me. Self reflection is incredibly important once in a while. And often enough, I need a kick in the rear to set my life straight. So, to all of my RP mates, if I have to bail to take care of another person online, please respect my decision to do so. That's all I ask. It's far too easy to get into too many conversations online and lose track of the ones you care about the most. For other RP enthusiasts out there, I hope this reflection has helped in examining your own life as well. The world needs to communicate with each other more. Going at it alone and trying to shove problems under the rug isn't going to change anything.
Take care everyone! I hope to have a more positive journal next time. :)
Zeus
P.S. I'm not depressed. I just felt eager to share an experience I had to rest of my followers, hoping someone can learn from my mistakes. ;)
