I've tried and tried again and again but it just never goes my way. I'm just giving up on it as I see no use for it. i will show affection but love is no longer existent. I know who i am and after a revelation I had. I just have to live up to the truth I may not find that one person. I'll probably just stick to having my friends and that's it. Love has brought me nothing but sadness and depression. evenb hatred toward others who have it. So i no longer want to feel it nor do i need it. unless someone can change that. I'm sorry, it is how it is.