a twisted moment happened to me today, I realized I love my life, and my G/F more then I ever expected. I am quite happy, I am yet poor, sad, sober, and sane I feel absolutely happy that way. This made me take aback my previous feelings and thoughts of how my life runs...

I have also learned that being here, being clever, having some sort of talent that may or may not get me any where. doesn't mean a thing unless it then has to candor to peoples preferences. We apparently don't recall how to enjoy things for their wonderment and content.. and ignoring our own preferences. Then the moment we do find some one we enjoy to watch.. we ask them questions with out thinking. I wish people would read before speaking. oh well. I guess I will complain later.