Accomplishment. I need to feel that now. It's driving me up the wall. I was doing well before her death, but now, with all the ways my ma's family trying to screw her over every which way she turns I've got to find that feeling even though I feel so drained beyond drained. I'm trying. I've been taking steps to finishing up my adopts account so I can get organized there. I'm working to clean up my notes so I can actually keep track of things there. I finally started cleaning up Tech Flesh so it can be published. I even have a stenograph sitting on my desk, just waiting to be used. I'm saying no to ot this weekend (other than today) just so I can get things completed and feel accomplished again. Maybe it's the foolish hope that it'll bleed more into the real world and I can be a more worthy mate but I don't know. I just... need this.