2 decades and still i know so little
2 decades and still ive experienced so little
I still have 6 more years till i start exploring
3 more years till im competent in what i do
And sheesh who knows how many more ill need to be able to start flying.


I dont keep many friends, because keeping too much is a hassle..
Im somewhat an introvert but i still yearn to be more sociable
Sometimes i feel left behind because im moving at my own pace
Sometimes i regret making choices that i was willing to pay the price for
I wanna be more adventerous but im still scared of what might be out there
I look at myself in the mirror and say "damn, youre meatsuit is growing old but deep down? You havent aged a bit.."

Id welcome changes in my life at the same time dread it
I long to be still but am forced to keep moving
Theres a secret place i know and that i made just for me
To escape the hard cold facts of this reality
I tell myself i have to accept certain truths
And be willing to make sacrifices for whats good

So please forgive me if im too inexperienced
Im sorry if im slower than what youre used to
My path will take years to complete and that can suck
I may be very shy at times and dont function well in large large groups
So please dont think im snobbish or anti social
Im just a late bloomer that needs a little more time

So i promise when that time comes ill make you happy
Just please bare with me and dont leave me alone.

Truth is

Im afraid,
Im insecure,
A really greeen greeeeeen greeen greenhorn
Ive got some issues
Im obsessive
I can be a bitch
But id still love you.

So dear Me, please dont get mad or hate me, i promise ill be better soon, dont give up on me okay? Ill make your day, everyday!

To Self, from Myself.

Happy fucking early birthday~ :)